it's been a while that i've been having this feeling, sth deep, too deep to be described, useless, small, helpless and lots more, and i couldn't afford other than to pray that Allah is not angry with me coz i am just too weak and do a lot of mistakes... i've been such a bad servant, perhaps there are times that i fail to remember Him, there are time that i do things that He doesn't like, there are time that i keep my mouth shut... even worse, there are time that i fail to put Him as the only "ILAH" and "RABB" (if only i can tell u the definition of these 2 powerful words. SEARCH: 4 ISTILAH BY AL MAUDUDI)...
and as exam is coming nearer, as a little useless student that is trying to be a good servant, i can feel that He is soothing my ways, and everything... and i could feel the warm and tranquil air that He is sending me, the peace and cold in the midnight, the calm and jubilant in the night and lots more....
oh Allah,
in this idyllic evening, i bet for ur kindness, to give mercy in everything that i am doing, please, don't ever neglect me coz i can't afford to breath without You by my side, grant me istiqamah and please, allow me to be among ur syuhada'.... i bet for Your love, and mercy...
