h.u.m.b.l.e

assalamualaikum warahmatullah...

i do wish that u can write individually to every person that i want, writing purely from my heart, comforting them with Allah's verses and motivate them to keep going. i do hope that i can be there when they want me to be there. but later i realise that i just couldn't. i am writing this to you, yes to you. to share something that i really hope from my heart and i do pray that Allah will deliver this to you.

whenever someone is overwhelming with problems, i always remember one of the usrah session that i had with my murabbi. the sessions that i went through had helped me much to be who i am today. to keep me strong, giving me a new perspective of life. and i would like to share, one of the new perspective of live that i've got, one of the refreshment that i've gotten with you, yes. with you. and i hope the verses Allah comfort u, and cool u down, strengthen your believe that u are never alone. Allah is there sister.

Katakanlah, "terangkanlah kepadaku jika siksaan Allah sampai kepadamu, atau hari kiamat sampai kepadamu, apakah kamu akan menyeru selain Allah, jika kamu orang yang benar!"
(Say: Tell me if the chastisement of Allah should overtake you or the hour should come upon you, will you call besides ALLAH, if you are truthful?)

(Tidak!), hanya kepaaNya kamu minta tolong. jika Dia mengkehendaki, Dia hilangkan apa yang kamu mohonkan kepadaNya, dan kamu tinggalkan apa yang kamu persekutukan.
(Nay, Him you call upon, so He clears away that for which you pray if He pleases and you forget what you set up)

dan sungguh! Kami telah mengutus kepada umat-umat sebelum engkau, kemudian Kami siksa mereka dengan kemelaratan dan kesengsaraan, agar mereka memohon dengan kerendahan hati.
(and certainly We sent to nations before you then We seized them with distress and affliction in order that they might humble themselves)

tetapi mengapa mereka tidak memohon dengan kerendahan hati ketika siksaan Kami datang menimpa mereka? bahkan hati mereka telah datang menjadi keras dan setan pun menjadikan terasa indah bagi mereka apa yang selalu mereka kerjakan.
(Yet why did they not, when Our punishment came to them, humble themselves? but their hearts hardened and the Shaitan made what they did fair-seeming to them)

(Al-An'am:40-43)

i cried the moment i went through the verses. in verses 40 and 41, Allah reminded us that to Him only do we week help. and He actually put two worse situations that He knows we would call upon Him, (siksaan dan Kiamat). and i really feel that Allah is actually smashing my hearts that i should be calling Him all the time, not only when tribulations come. and He strengthen our weaknesses that we are actually calling Him, only Him, why do we feel so strong when we are actually not?  and He continued the verses with stories about the ummat before us, whom Allah give them mehnah and tribulations for them to humble themselves. HUMBLE? ain't easy? that's the hardest thing that we can do.

Allah told us that Allah actually seize human with distress and afflictions so that human might humble themselves. admit that we are weak. admit that Allah the all power. admit that we are just His tiny helpless servants.

at times is life, we tend to forget that we have no power, no control on anything. we could work, plan but Allah is the best planner. and Allah actually longing for our prayers. He is longing for our cries, for our feeling of "smallness". when actually we feel that we are losers.

and when you and i do feel that we are weak, and we do admit that we are helpless, why did not we humble ourselves? why did not we cry for His help? why did not we ask for His forgiveness?

i am writing this for you and me, to cherish all the obstacles that we are going through. Allah want us to get closer to Him, then be close! Allah want us to be humble, then be humble!

i am reminding you and me, that this world is full of mehnah, that's it. then why don't we call upon Him?

Allah rindu mendengarkan
rintihanmu berpanjangan

wake up for our tahajud
and full it with tears
longing for Him
because to Him only we return!

sungguh! tiada daya dan upaya kita selain dari Allah!

aishahabdulhalim

hold on

assalamualaikum warahmatullah.

i am 21
and i do feel that i am old
i am trying my best to be 21
to be syabab like what the ummah dreams on
to be the best hamba like what Allah demanded
and to be the best dua't like what the Prophet did
and too many things coming in
this in
another thing in
and i am just too bad to put things on
everything lingering on minds
and i just hate to write it down
kerja nak bina ummah is not easy
and it is not pun
everything is not
and we choose which difficulty to indulge in
the one that u keep on suffering even till the Hereafter
or the one that u can have eternal rest later
this head is knocking
but working not
Allah
i do try my best to juggle things
to put things into order
to keep myself updated
and to keep everyone in position
and for the time that i fail
i am sorry
for the time that i forget
do remind me
for the time that i go astray
take me back
because i do misleading
i do mistakes
i am sorry that i am weak
but i am glad that i am weak
because from there i realise
that I have Allah Al-Qawiy
i have Him to hold on
hold on
it just a little bit more
stay calm
stay focus
stay organize
stay living

p/s: aishah hopes u see the unseen

aishahabdulhalim

Live or Leave

penat

pancit

pengsan

tak larat

masalah?

bertambah!

berkurang?

tak pernah!

memang ini hakikat jalan menuju Allah kan?

problem come and rarely go

we try to manage people but the hearts cannot

we try to put things together

but end up not be

we try to sort things out

but end up not

we try to wake up

but later we fall many times

and the obstacles keep on coming

too many

too much

until we can't take it

and slowly we whisper

indeed! there is no power other than Allah!

wholeheartedly.

and slowly we smile.

dear Allah,

i am abdullah, ur slave....

may Allah bless