hold on

assalamualaikum warahmatullah.

i am 21
and i do feel that i am old
i am trying my best to be 21
to be syabab like what the ummah dreams on
to be the best hamba like what Allah demanded
and to be the best dua't like what the Prophet did
and too many things coming in
this in
another thing in
and i am just too bad to put things on
everything lingering on minds
and i just hate to write it down
kerja nak bina ummah is not easy
and it is not pun
everything is not
and we choose which difficulty to indulge in
the one that u keep on suffering even till the Hereafter
or the one that u can have eternal rest later
this head is knocking
but working not
Allah
i do try my best to juggle things
to put things into order
to keep myself updated
and to keep everyone in position
and for the time that i fail
i am sorry
for the time that i forget
do remind me
for the time that i go astray
take me back
because i do misleading
i do mistakes
i am sorry that i am weak
but i am glad that i am weak
because from there i realise
that I have Allah Al-Qawiy
i have Him to hold on
hold on
it just a little bit more
stay calm
stay focus
stay organize
stay living

p/s: aishah hopes u see the unseen

aishahabdulhalim