salam...
2 years had passed after SPM ended... loads of thing happening, here and there, outside and inside that somehow made me who i am today, hehs....
looking back at those was not easy, it leads to amalgam of feelings, of course hating those day and wish that that was not u but realising that was ur past, nothing can be done other than being thankful to Allah for giving u chance to improve for the better...
and if two years back, i was having tonnes of questions on Islam, alhamdulillah, here i am willing and ready to share with people about Islam, praise be upon Allah...
and this blog aged 2 years, this engraves myself, my ups and downs, my POI and lots more... and it is meant to read and learn from my mistakes, may Allah give everyone strength and guidance to be better, ameen...
here goes my first post, exactly 2 years back :p
http://chalsini.blogspot.com/2008/12/salam-maal-hijrah.html
aishah hopes u manage to see the unseen...
Wednesday, 8 December 2010
Saturday, 6 November 2010
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salam...
speechless... tonnes of thing happening in a short while and i gotta reorganize everything, serious... feel hopeless, weak, mundane... and only He knows and understands that... it's more than we talk, more than planning everything, it's a bout planning and turning everything into reality... i seriously think and believe that Allah is giving me chance to walk through the true path, and He answered my prayers, and now it's about my choice either to be or not to be in the irghteous. no, insha Allah, He will prevent me from futur, just that working in organization is not easy, what more when u're on the top and u're the clueless-experienceless leader... but, realising that Heknows it better and everything comes from Him, i am certain that this is the best and for that i need some time to ind the sstrength and courage, putting everything into order in doing my best to lead people systematically towards Allah...
oh Allah,
i'm ur tiny, hopeless creature and i bet for ur guidance, ameen
speechless... tonnes of thing happening in a short while and i gotta reorganize everything, serious... feel hopeless, weak, mundane... and only He knows and understands that... it's more than we talk, more than planning everything, it's a bout planning and turning everything into reality... i seriously think and believe that Allah is giving me chance to walk through the true path, and He answered my prayers, and now it's about my choice either to be or not to be in the irghteous. no, insha Allah, He will prevent me from futur, just that working in organization is not easy, what more when u're on the top and u're the clueless-experienceless leader... but, realising that Heknows it better and everything comes from Him, i am certain that this is the best and for that i need some time to ind the sstrength and courage, putting everything into order in doing my best to lead people systematically towards Allah...
oh Allah,
i'm ur tiny, hopeless creature and i bet for ur guidance, ameen
Saturday, 2 October 2010
transformation
salam....
we finished our duty as volunteer for netball game successfully i gues.... since kasukma started, kmb seems to have a new life, a new fresh breath i guess... seeing them coming down early for the training, as eraly as seven till 2 in the afternoon, cheering and supporting each other tho their friends are making mistakes, putting aside their meal for the sake of playing and lots more sacrifaction make my tears running.... if only this spirit can be transformed into jihad spirit...
and suddenly, my imagination on battles during Rasulullah time coming in....
it was raining, quite heavily... but the netball players keep on palying, passing the ball, slipping, going through the rain, putting themselves into the risk of having fever, they keep on play till they won the game.... and i remember during Battle of Badr, when Rasulullah and sshabats went through the rain.... and during Battle of Ahzab, when Allah sent down heavy rain to sweep away the musyrikin, SUBHANALLAH.... its for different aim, with the same intention: TO WIN...
kmb was having a tough match with kuala nerang, very.... and there was one time when kmb was leading by one mark, just one... and everyone was hoping of course for the victory... and the debaran and hope and fear that we feel remind me on Rasullullah feeling during Battle of Badr when he sobbed terribly asking for the victory till Abu Bakr came and cooled him down telling him that Allah will surely give them victory...
and ffinally we lost to kuala nerang.... aini, the catain suddenly collapsed and we were running for her, bringing her to the tent... i remember the story during Battle of Uhud, when a lot of sahabats were injured... i now understand the meaning of worriness... i cried while holding her up, praying that she's not gonna die for this game... and deep down in my heart, i wish that it was a war, and my friends were injured and i pray that they will syahid...
i cn't stop tears from running out for every game, Tuhan, aku rindukan jihad... aku rindukan dan mahukan semangat serta kebolehan yang dimiliki setiap umat diletakkan pada tempat yang sepatutnya... anugerahkan aku semangat untuk berjihad mengembalikan kegemilngan islam agar dapat aku letakkan islam pada haknya yang teratas....
ya muqalllibalqulub,
tsabitqulubana 'ala dinik,
wa'ala toatik,
wa'ala syahadatik,
wa'ala jihadatik,
fisabilik,
innakani'mal maula hu wa ni'mannasir....
we finished our duty as volunteer for netball game successfully i gues.... since kasukma started, kmb seems to have a new life, a new fresh breath i guess... seeing them coming down early for the training, as eraly as seven till 2 in the afternoon, cheering and supporting each other tho their friends are making mistakes, putting aside their meal for the sake of playing and lots more sacrifaction make my tears running.... if only this spirit can be transformed into jihad spirit...
and suddenly, my imagination on battles during Rasulullah time coming in....
it was raining, quite heavily... but the netball players keep on palying, passing the ball, slipping, going through the rain, putting themselves into the risk of having fever, they keep on play till they won the game.... and i remember during Battle of Badr, when Rasulullah and sshabats went through the rain.... and during Battle of Ahzab, when Allah sent down heavy rain to sweep away the musyrikin, SUBHANALLAH.... its for different aim, with the same intention: TO WIN...
kmb was having a tough match with kuala nerang, very.... and there was one time when kmb was leading by one mark, just one... and everyone was hoping of course for the victory... and the debaran and hope and fear that we feel remind me on Rasullullah feeling during Battle of Badr when he sobbed terribly asking for the victory till Abu Bakr came and cooled him down telling him that Allah will surely give them victory...
and ffinally we lost to kuala nerang.... aini, the catain suddenly collapsed and we were running for her, bringing her to the tent... i remember the story during Battle of Uhud, when a lot of sahabats were injured... i now understand the meaning of worriness... i cried while holding her up, praying that she's not gonna die for this game... and deep down in my heart, i wish that it was a war, and my friends were injured and i pray that they will syahid...
i cn't stop tears from running out for every game, Tuhan, aku rindukan jihad... aku rindukan dan mahukan semangat serta kebolehan yang dimiliki setiap umat diletakkan pada tempat yang sepatutnya... anugerahkan aku semangat untuk berjihad mengembalikan kegemilngan islam agar dapat aku letakkan islam pada haknya yang teratas....
ya muqalllibalqulub,
tsabitqulubana 'ala dinik,
wa'ala toatik,
wa'ala syahadatik,
wa'ala jihadatik,
fisabilik,
innakani'mal maula hu wa ni'mannasir....
Thursday, 23 September 2010
...
salam
true what people said,
the hardest thing to do is to say to urself that U CAN DO IT!!!
i would say that it's hard to say that m now reaching the acomodador point, i dpn't like it, but yeah reality always bites... i just need to get rid of it and i need to make it fast, but dealing with urself and people here and there, it makes things more difficult... m just a human, a helpless God servant...and i just realised that it's been a long time i didn't cry terribly during sujud, feeling so small in front pf Him, and it's been aeon too i shiver thinking and worrying about death... i've been tooo arrogant with Him for long and no wonder He is giving me a lot of things to make me realise that i am just a helpless tiny creature that He has made....
dear Allah,
m weak and i ask for the strength.....
Tuesday, 14 September 2010
heartless
salam...
tonnes of thing in my mind... academics, dakwah etc....
been very worry with my academics, IA, EE, TOK and other IB rudimentary thingy... and at the same time deep down in my heart, i know that i shouldn't be having this feeling... why do i worry more on my dunyah rather than my akhirat? what kind of servant am i? how terrible a daie that think on herself more than the ummah...
m sorry, iman jatuh ke dalam laut yang ketujuh, betullah biah solehah tu penting tahap giga... susah sangat nak tsabat, i think and m sure that i miss the biah, i miss to tadabbur, i miss to walk with radiant face wisihing everyone assalamualaikum... i miss to sit in halaqah and ponder together...
m sorry but m desperate for reminder.... i know that Allah treats everyone with his/her best way and i believe that ALLAH is teaching me with events and atrocious things in the world... being a thinker, i can't stop myself from thinking and thats the start for me to generate my iman but then thinking without sharing the thoughts makes me crazy... i mean when u have too many things bottle up in ur mind and u can't pour it out, its the time when u will find something as an escapism.... and that escapism is sth bad, i mean it....
m sorry for sharing this out, but reality bites... changing for good is not easy, keeping it for better is even harder... for readers, please pray that i can be better, need to be super strong, need to really work for syahid tho dah lama lupa pasal my golden dream:SYAHID....
i feel annoyed viewing facebook... but i know that i shouldn't.... viewing facebook, i know that Allah is reminding me that my work is still lots more and i need to work everything off... takdairnya umur tak panjang, moga syahid masih di genggaman....
seimbang itu sukar...
aishah hopes that u manage to see the unseen...
tonnes of thing in my mind... academics, dakwah etc....
been very worry with my academics, IA, EE, TOK and other IB rudimentary thingy... and at the same time deep down in my heart, i know that i shouldn't be having this feeling... why do i worry more on my dunyah rather than my akhirat? what kind of servant am i? how terrible a daie that think on herself more than the ummah...
m sorry, iman jatuh ke dalam laut yang ketujuh, betullah biah solehah tu penting tahap giga... susah sangat nak tsabat, i think and m sure that i miss the biah, i miss to tadabbur, i miss to walk with radiant face wisihing everyone assalamualaikum... i miss to sit in halaqah and ponder together...
m sorry but m desperate for reminder.... i know that Allah treats everyone with his/her best way and i believe that ALLAH is teaching me with events and atrocious things in the world... being a thinker, i can't stop myself from thinking and thats the start for me to generate my iman but then thinking without sharing the thoughts makes me crazy... i mean when u have too many things bottle up in ur mind and u can't pour it out, its the time when u will find something as an escapism.... and that escapism is sth bad, i mean it....
m sorry for sharing this out, but reality bites... changing for good is not easy, keeping it for better is even harder... for readers, please pray that i can be better, need to be super strong, need to really work for syahid tho dah lama lupa pasal my golden dream:SYAHID....
i feel annoyed viewing facebook... but i know that i shouldn't.... viewing facebook, i know that Allah is reminding me that my work is still lots more and i need to work everything off... takdairnya umur tak panjang, moga syahid masih di genggaman....
seimbang itu sukar...
aishah hopes that u manage to see the unseen...
eid mubarak...
...
Syawal comes with amalgam of feelings, I ended ramadhan with one this mountain hope, hoping to be able to meet ramadhan again… looking back at my ramadhan, tonnes of thing need to be improved, perhaps there are still minutes and seconds that were not used wisely, there are still moment that I live without thinking of Him, there are still moment that I hope ramadhan will end fast…. Ya Allah, please…gimme chance to meet the enxt ramadhan so that I could improve, I know that I was not performing up to notch for me to be granted the taqwa, but I know that u are most forgiving ang loving, please ya Allah…. Gimme chance to meet the next ramadhan, I bet….
I know that visiting the cemetry during eid had not been practised by Rasulullah, but realising that was the only golden time for me to visit the cemetry and taking the inrah… it’s a good time indeed to soften my heart by remembering as-sam… I haven't cry for weeks and I need that and alhamdulillah, I got sth….
Coming back from the cemetry, celebrating 1st syawal without tok, pak long… I feel lost… I know I shouldn't be having that feeling, it's not that I'm not redha that they are gone, but deep down inside, I can't deny that I miss them terribly… and I feel thankful and lucky coz later in akhirat, insha Allah we will be able to live together till infinity…… ameen… ya Allah, place us in jannah so that we can still love each other because of You…
Raya visiting tok tam, an oldie that I used to get close too…. Hearing to her stories that she was able to finish the Quran for 4 times made me cry… how lucky u are… tho people could say that she does not have anything to be done other than ngaji…. If only this is my last ramadhan and I could tell Allah that I were not able to recite the Quran many times because I was busy with my IB stuffs, if only…. Ya Allah, forgive me for focusing too much on my dunyah, forgive me for still loving my dunyah, for give for not succeed in treasuring ramadhan, please ya Allah, meet me with the next ramadhan so that I can improve…ameen…
Ramadhan and syawal without my two friends, yeap they are just buddy that comes in my kife, one is my kindergarden friend, muhammad muhsin omar and one is my sahabat nurul jannah ahmad sani… raya made me thinking on them, serious… no one could guaranteen that this won't be my last ramadhan… and often I wonder wether they two realised that last ramadhan was their last ramadhan… I can't stop tears from running out thinking on them having a good rest… ya ALLAH, PLACE THEM IN ONE OF THE JANNAH'S HOLE… they were good servants and good friends… please ya Allah, help their family with their absence and meet them with people that they love in jannah..
Al fatihah to muhammad muhsin omar and nurul jannah sani….
If people said that syawal was a bliss, I could just smile, naah…. Bliss can only be defined the moment I meet Him, not other time… ya ALLAH, u know what in little heart, I bet for ur forgiveness, place us in ur jannatul firdaus, grant us syahid, give us strength to fight for Islam…. ameen
Aishah hopes that u manage to see the unseen
Syawal comes with amalgam of feelings, I ended ramadhan with one this mountain hope, hoping to be able to meet ramadhan again… looking back at my ramadhan, tonnes of thing need to be improved, perhaps there are still minutes and seconds that were not used wisely, there are still moment that I live without thinking of Him, there are still moment that I hope ramadhan will end fast…. Ya Allah, please…gimme chance to meet the enxt ramadhan so that I could improve, I know that I was not performing up to notch for me to be granted the taqwa, but I know that u are most forgiving ang loving, please ya Allah…. Gimme chance to meet the next ramadhan, I bet….
I know that visiting the cemetry during eid had not been practised by Rasulullah, but realising that was the only golden time for me to visit the cemetry and taking the inrah… it’s a good time indeed to soften my heart by remembering as-sam… I haven't cry for weeks and I need that and alhamdulillah, I got sth….
Coming back from the cemetry, celebrating 1st syawal without tok, pak long… I feel lost… I know I shouldn't be having that feeling, it's not that I'm not redha that they are gone, but deep down inside, I can't deny that I miss them terribly… and I feel thankful and lucky coz later in akhirat, insha Allah we will be able to live together till infinity…… ameen… ya Allah, place us in jannah so that we can still love each other because of You…
Raya visiting tok tam, an oldie that I used to get close too…. Hearing to her stories that she was able to finish the Quran for 4 times made me cry… how lucky u are… tho people could say that she does not have anything to be done other than ngaji…. If only this is my last ramadhan and I could tell Allah that I were not able to recite the Quran many times because I was busy with my IB stuffs, if only…. Ya Allah, forgive me for focusing too much on my dunyah, forgive me for still loving my dunyah, for give for not succeed in treasuring ramadhan, please ya Allah, meet me with the next ramadhan so that I can improve…ameen…
Ramadhan and syawal without my two friends, yeap they are just buddy that comes in my kife, one is my kindergarden friend, muhammad muhsin omar and one is my sahabat nurul jannah ahmad sani… raya made me thinking on them, serious… no one could guaranteen that this won't be my last ramadhan… and often I wonder wether they two realised that last ramadhan was their last ramadhan… I can't stop tears from running out thinking on them having a good rest… ya ALLAH, PLACE THEM IN ONE OF THE JANNAH'S HOLE… they were good servants and good friends… please ya Allah, help their family with their absence and meet them with people that they love in jannah..
Al fatihah to muhammad muhsin omar and nurul jannah sani….
If people said that syawal was a bliss, I could just smile, naah…. Bliss can only be defined the moment I meet Him, not other time… ya ALLAH, u know what in little heart, I bet for ur forgiveness, place us in ur jannatul firdaus, grant us syahid, give us strength to fight for Islam…. ameen
Aishah hopes that u manage to see the unseen
Sunday, 8 August 2010
in love
salam....
after few months of silent, now only i feel like sharing.... i think life is interesting, of course it is, being an Ib student makes me realise that life is about trial and error, u keep on trying....
we just finished our sports carnival, seniors graduation yesterday and i went out for buying the students tickets on friday... in simple words, i don't have time studying... that is fine if only my week is like anybody else.... i'm having maths and statistics test tomorrow and physics on tueday...i haven't finish my economics commentaries and my extended essay.. not to forget my TOK essay... what more revising my sem 1 and sem2 syllabus.... call me crazy for still involving myself in all the MPP work.... often is ask myself on why am i doing all this...sacrifaction is not always easy but thats what i have to do often... don't ask me about sleep coz i seldom get enough sleep... it will all be waste if i'm doing all this for myself, for CAS and for any other stupid things... the only thing why i keep on moving is because i wanna prepare myself for a world that won't last...i'm tired thinking about the world's problem, it never end..... i always love the feeling when Allah keeps me going tho i feel like the world is on my shoulders.... thats the power of niat... MPP life is not easy, IB some more, naqibah, sehati serumpun and lots more... but knowing that ALlah is looking for all ths, i know that i have to work full-heartedly for this path, i know that i gotta prepare my best for the here after..... and oh ALLAH, please allevaiate my way, i'm seeking and begging for ur love and i can't wait to meet u, i need u always and i need u to keep on going.... give me a good date with u later on, i love u....
and i remember a hadith saying that those that ALlah wants good things about him/her, ALlah will grant him the understanding on Islam... and i think odah got that... often i cry shocking with the amazing Allah's works... when Allah gives her the understanding, i couldn't ask for more and please Allah, speed up her way in this path, i love her and i want her to be together in jannah...
ya Allah,
tsabatkan kami di jalanMu, anugerahkan kami kecintaan terhadap pertemuan denganMu melebihi kecintaan kami terhadap dunia dan seluruh isinya, masukkan aku dalam golongan yang engkau redhai dan anugerahkan aku syahid di jalanMu...
p/s: Aishah hopes that u manage to see the unseen
after few months of silent, now only i feel like sharing.... i think life is interesting, of course it is, being an Ib student makes me realise that life is about trial and error, u keep on trying....
we just finished our sports carnival, seniors graduation yesterday and i went out for buying the students tickets on friday... in simple words, i don't have time studying... that is fine if only my week is like anybody else.... i'm having maths and statistics test tomorrow and physics on tueday...i haven't finish my economics commentaries and my extended essay.. not to forget my TOK essay... what more revising my sem 1 and sem2 syllabus.... call me crazy for still involving myself in all the MPP work.... often is ask myself on why am i doing all this...sacrifaction is not always easy but thats what i have to do often... don't ask me about sleep coz i seldom get enough sleep... it will all be waste if i'm doing all this for myself, for CAS and for any other stupid things... the only thing why i keep on moving is because i wanna prepare myself for a world that won't last...i'm tired thinking about the world's problem, it never end..... i always love the feeling when Allah keeps me going tho i feel like the world is on my shoulders.... thats the power of niat... MPP life is not easy, IB some more, naqibah, sehati serumpun and lots more... but knowing that ALlah is looking for all ths, i know that i have to work full-heartedly for this path, i know that i gotta prepare my best for the here after..... and oh ALLAH, please allevaiate my way, i'm seeking and begging for ur love and i can't wait to meet u, i need u always and i need u to keep on going.... give me a good date with u later on, i love u....
and i remember a hadith saying that those that ALlah wants good things about him/her, ALlah will grant him the understanding on Islam... and i think odah got that... often i cry shocking with the amazing Allah's works... when Allah gives her the understanding, i couldn't ask for more and please Allah, speed up her way in this path, i love her and i want her to be together in jannah...
ya Allah,
tsabatkan kami di jalanMu, anugerahkan kami kecintaan terhadap pertemuan denganMu melebihi kecintaan kami terhadap dunia dan seluruh isinya, masukkan aku dalam golongan yang engkau redhai dan anugerahkan aku syahid di jalanMu...
p/s: Aishah hopes that u manage to see the unseen
Monday, 21 June 2010
s.a.k.i.t
salam...
tonnes of thing in my head and i just feel like spilling... i can't still adjust with the fact that jannah is no longer around, often i feel that she is around, i need the smile... ya Allah, m not protesting on ur fate but i can't deny the fact that i miss her soooo much... i know that people come and go but good people seldom come but they always go.... it's not easy to deal with the fact that u npw become the reference sedangkan u use to refer on somebody else... m building the strength and i know that Allah is around me to work with...
i can't deny that m scared of death, n it makes me worry on it too much... i was close with jannah and we have a lot of similarities... the 3rd child, rebellious and lots more... u name it all... we both love palestine and hoping to go there one day, insha Allah... and these similarities makem me feel that i'll be the next among our friends and i have to admit that i can't wait but still worry thinking on my amalan...
i don't feel like sambung IB after knowing and realising that this is an Israel system and i can't force myself to believe that Allah will redha my path... i don't feel like studying all the fardhu kifayah thinking that m still weak and horrible in my fardhu ain... i feel so far from Allah and m worry that i can't smile on the last day of my life.... m scared thinking that syurga is just for obedient servant of Allah because i've done a lot sin and i feel so bad about it... i feel so envy knowing that jannah meets Allah with pure heart without intention to get married while m having a lot of masalah hati....
m not asking for solutions cause i know that Allah will help me to work this out... i just have to keep on going... i wanna be an Aishah, a Khaulah, an Umar...
and m working all these out while waiting for the day to meet Him :)
oh Allah, anugerahkan aku kecintaan terhadap pertemuan denganMu melebihi kecintaanku terhadap dunia dan isinya....
tonnes of thing in my head and i just feel like spilling... i can't still adjust with the fact that jannah is no longer around, often i feel that she is around, i need the smile... ya Allah, m not protesting on ur fate but i can't deny the fact that i miss her soooo much... i know that people come and go but good people seldom come but they always go.... it's not easy to deal with the fact that u npw become the reference sedangkan u use to refer on somebody else... m building the strength and i know that Allah is around me to work with...
i can't deny that m scared of death, n it makes me worry on it too much... i was close with jannah and we have a lot of similarities... the 3rd child, rebellious and lots more... u name it all... we both love palestine and hoping to go there one day, insha Allah... and these similarities makem me feel that i'll be the next among our friends and i have to admit that i can't wait but still worry thinking on my amalan...
i don't feel like sambung IB after knowing and realising that this is an Israel system and i can't force myself to believe that Allah will redha my path... i don't feel like studying all the fardhu kifayah thinking that m still weak and horrible in my fardhu ain... i feel so far from Allah and m worry that i can't smile on the last day of my life.... m scared thinking that syurga is just for obedient servant of Allah because i've done a lot sin and i feel so bad about it... i feel so envy knowing that jannah meets Allah with pure heart without intention to get married while m having a lot of masalah hati....
m not asking for solutions cause i know that Allah will help me to work this out... i just have to keep on going... i wanna be an Aishah, a Khaulah, an Umar...
and m working all these out while waiting for the day to meet Him :)
oh Allah, anugerahkan aku kecintaan terhadap pertemuan denganMu melebihi kecintaanku terhadap dunia dan isinya....
Friday, 4 June 2010
:(
salam...
u won't believe me crying and i don't cry often but the shocking news shattered the wall that i've built... nad called me and i was surprise with her sudden call, and i thought that she was kidding me that jannah dah tak de... i mean, this is just kidding but she told me that thisis not a main-main matter... then i said manalah tahu she is hospitalised and koma ke, anything... and she called again 2 times to confirm that wif me and asking me to break the news to people... i was still in the air, i mean, she is jannah sani, we were close, i always envy with her sweet radiant smile and today u're telling me that she menninggal... i was peechless for a while and broke the news to my family. ma knows all the good deeds that she has done and ma couldn't believe it... i tried to call m09b members but nobody answered, i know that they are busy settling the matter... until hazirah answered my call and i managed to get the confirmation on what has happened....
i was speechless, she is just 19 and we just met, we became loss just in a short time and i that time i was shaking, i was asking myself, if Allah were to matikan me now, if now is the time that i've promised to Allah... am i prepared? and i feel my iman is so fake... often we muhasabah ourselves that maut is near and often i tell myself that i can't wait to meet Allah and i can't wait to syahid, and when i knew the news i was shaking, did i say all those sincerely?
i never felt thatmaut is so near until i got the news... i was sad and yet afraid... and i can't sleep thinking those... i know and i believe that she is prepared to meet Allah, i know that, a girl who jaga her solat jemaah, cover her aurat even keluar from room coz ada non-Muslims, smile to people all the time, and i said to myself a few times that i will miss her smile but never that i thought that it will be this fast, i mean i can't see her smile anymore, her smile that often light up my day... she always bawa her botol air everywhere and often i tell myself that she looks cute... i told her once that it would be nice if i can pakai kain than seluar one day and she said that she prefers to wear seluar than kain, than i said sahabatiah dulu semua pakai kain and she agreed with it... then we went to the outdoor gym and studied there... she was worrying about econs paper and asking me on how to master econs... we were laying down when she suddenly said "astaghfirullah" and quickly bangun and betulkan her baju... i was asking when her and she pointing on 2 guys jogging....
i remember one night afta maghrib when i saw her full of tears, it was friday, a day before we went to stadium melawati... we buat halaqah (circle) and she suddenly said that she wanna share sth and she was crying, sobbing.. we got curious... she then recited this verses:
"lemparkanlah olehmu beruda ke dalam neraka Jahanam, semua orang yang sangat ingkar dan keras kepala. yang sangat enggan melakukan kebajikan, melampaui batas dan bersikap ragu-ragu" (50:24-25)
she stopped nad sobbed.... we were curious and she told us the story.. medic students have this conflict of taking HL or Sl maths... she too had... she had herr isthikharah and she decided to for HL.. we were having maths test and everyonne's result is dissappointing. a lot of her classmates that take HL decided to drop for SL... she too has this uncertainty... she was uncertain tho she had performed isthikharah and Allah gerakkan her heart for HL... she was uncertain and she couldn't do work one whole evening... she then had usrah and they were tadabur ths verses.... she cried because of her uncertainty that might bring her to neraka Jahanam... she cried, she sobbed until some f us cried too.... it slapped me, Masha-Allah, her faith towards Him is super strong, i mean it...
during exam week, we slept at surau and she told me that she wanna joint and study with me, then only we got to know each other and she told me that she really wanna fly. and dhe told me her life in MATRI too... i don't know how we suddenly got close, very... and it just happened out of sudden... i remember her stories about her sister's friend... the seniors passed away after accident, she was driving to get the juniors candies coz they are sleepy.... she told me the stories and said that sometimes Allah nak bagi pengajaran yang sangat besar and kita kena bayar dengan harga yang tinggi. i looked at her eyes coz i was telling her that my heart is like batu. i remember the last day when she came to my room, i want to give back her baju and she asked me to keep it first... and m keeping it till now... she was so eager to ask me to keep her phone number, she typed it herself....
words can't describe it all... i once told her that i like to see her in her rudung yang always labuh, i could that she always feel secured with her tudung and i wish that i can wear such one day, and she smiled and replied "insha Allah". her words will make u remember Allah..."insha Allah", "masha Allah", "astaghfirullah"... u said it all... and also one day we went to the hall together and we were talking about socks.... she said she prefers socks than stockings coz socks tebal and tak nampak aurat, stockings ada je yang nipis.... i was speechless... true, she really concern about her aurat....
i now realise the importance of minta maaf afta solat jemaah, u are luck dear, to be able to meet Him now.. Allah knows that u are prepared... people said, orang baik mati awal... and i have to agree with it... i miss u dear, i promise to try to follow all ur good deeds... may Alllah gimme strength to fight in this path even without u by my side :( i told Dara that i've lost a person that i can always refer on agama and my decisions... betullah, Allah tak hilangkan ilmu tapi Allah matikan orang berilmu :(
salam...to whoever reading ths, i just want to let u know that she is a nice girl, super nice girl. i always envy with her sweet radiant smile, cute personality and a few time i told myself that i'll miss her smile but never i thought that it will be this fast :(i don't know what bond us together but i believe that Allah has sent her to help me working on the right path, we are close, still am at heart.. even during her few last days in coll, we slept together dekat surau... surau, Allah's place bond us together and Allah helped to develop our ukhuwwah and Allah too had destined that i'll just have her for a while.... she cares about her aurat all the time, she even wore tudung outside her room coz ada non-Muslims... and i remember once when we were in the surau and attent diff meeting but i could still remember her tegas tone warning her clubmates to be qudwah hasanah...her ddemise still taught people a lot of thing... lucky her to be able to teach people ilmu yang berguna yang menjadi bekal buat dia di sana... even Allah chose s very nice day for her... i miss heroh Allah,u bond us together and u too flowerish it... now i've learnt a lot of good deeds from her and i promise to try to follow... and now too i know that as-sam is so near and i'm paying it wif her loss... please ya Allah, place her in ur jannah and forbid her from azab kubur and neraka... aku bersaksi bahawa dia membuat banyak kebaikan Ya Allah dalam menyebarkan agamaMu
sorry for being emotional again, i can't help myself, keep on sedekahkan her with verses from Quran and apply all the ilmu that she gave us, it will be beneficial for her....
u won't believe me crying and i don't cry often but the shocking news shattered the wall that i've built... nad called me and i was surprise with her sudden call, and i thought that she was kidding me that jannah dah tak de... i mean, this is just kidding but she told me that thisis not a main-main matter... then i said manalah tahu she is hospitalised and koma ke, anything... and she called again 2 times to confirm that wif me and asking me to break the news to people... i was still in the air, i mean, she is jannah sani, we were close, i always envy with her sweet radiant smile and today u're telling me that she menninggal... i was peechless for a while and broke the news to my family. ma knows all the good deeds that she has done and ma couldn't believe it... i tried to call m09b members but nobody answered, i know that they are busy settling the matter... until hazirah answered my call and i managed to get the confirmation on what has happened....
i was speechless, she is just 19 and we just met, we became loss just in a short time and i that time i was shaking, i was asking myself, if Allah were to matikan me now, if now is the time that i've promised to Allah... am i prepared? and i feel my iman is so fake... often we muhasabah ourselves that maut is near and often i tell myself that i can't wait to meet Allah and i can't wait to syahid, and when i knew the news i was shaking, did i say all those sincerely?
i never felt thatmaut is so near until i got the news... i was sad and yet afraid... and i can't sleep thinking those... i know and i believe that she is prepared to meet Allah, i know that, a girl who jaga her solat jemaah, cover her aurat even keluar from room coz ada non-Muslims, smile to people all the time, and i said to myself a few times that i will miss her smile but never that i thought that it will be this fast, i mean i can't see her smile anymore, her smile that often light up my day... she always bawa her botol air everywhere and often i tell myself that she looks cute... i told her once that it would be nice if i can pakai kain than seluar one day and she said that she prefers to wear seluar than kain, than i said sahabatiah dulu semua pakai kain and she agreed with it... then we went to the outdoor gym and studied there... she was worrying about econs paper and asking me on how to master econs... we were laying down when she suddenly said "astaghfirullah" and quickly bangun and betulkan her baju... i was asking when her and she pointing on 2 guys jogging....
i remember one night afta maghrib when i saw her full of tears, it was friday, a day before we went to stadium melawati... we buat halaqah (circle) and she suddenly said that she wanna share sth and she was crying, sobbing.. we got curious... she then recited this verses:
"lemparkanlah olehmu beruda ke dalam neraka Jahanam, semua orang yang sangat ingkar dan keras kepala. yang sangat enggan melakukan kebajikan, melampaui batas dan bersikap ragu-ragu" (50:24-25)
she stopped nad sobbed.... we were curious and she told us the story.. medic students have this conflict of taking HL or Sl maths... she too had... she had herr isthikharah and she decided to for HL.. we were having maths test and everyonne's result is dissappointing. a lot of her classmates that take HL decided to drop for SL... she too has this uncertainty... she was uncertain tho she had performed isthikharah and Allah gerakkan her heart for HL... she was uncertain and she couldn't do work one whole evening... she then had usrah and they were tadabur ths verses.... she cried because of her uncertainty that might bring her to neraka Jahanam... she cried, she sobbed until some f us cried too.... it slapped me, Masha-Allah, her faith towards Him is super strong, i mean it...
during exam week, we slept at surau and she told me that she wanna joint and study with me, then only we got to know each other and she told me that she really wanna fly. and dhe told me her life in MATRI too... i don't know how we suddenly got close, very... and it just happened out of sudden... i remember her stories about her sister's friend... the seniors passed away after accident, she was driving to get the juniors candies coz they are sleepy.... she told me the stories and said that sometimes Allah nak bagi pengajaran yang sangat besar and kita kena bayar dengan harga yang tinggi. i looked at her eyes coz i was telling her that my heart is like batu. i remember the last day when she came to my room, i want to give back her baju and she asked me to keep it first... and m keeping it till now... she was so eager to ask me to keep her phone number, she typed it herself....
words can't describe it all... i once told her that i like to see her in her rudung yang always labuh, i could that she always feel secured with her tudung and i wish that i can wear such one day, and she smiled and replied "insha Allah". her words will make u remember Allah..."insha Allah", "masha Allah", "astaghfirullah"... u said it all... and also one day we went to the hall together and we were talking about socks.... she said she prefers socks than stockings coz socks tebal and tak nampak aurat, stockings ada je yang nipis.... i was speechless... true, she really concern about her aurat....
i now realise the importance of minta maaf afta solat jemaah, u are luck dear, to be able to meet Him now.. Allah knows that u are prepared... people said, orang baik mati awal... and i have to agree with it... i miss u dear, i promise to try to follow all ur good deeds... may Alllah gimme strength to fight in this path even without u by my side :( i told Dara that i've lost a person that i can always refer on agama and my decisions... betullah, Allah tak hilangkan ilmu tapi Allah matikan orang berilmu :(
salam...to whoever reading ths, i just want to let u know that she is a nice girl, super nice girl. i always envy with her sweet radiant smile, cute personality and a few time i told myself that i'll miss her smile but never i thought that it will be this fast :(i don't know what bond us together but i believe that Allah has sent her to help me working on the right path, we are close, still am at heart.. even during her few last days in coll, we slept together dekat surau... surau, Allah's place bond us together and Allah helped to develop our ukhuwwah and Allah too had destined that i'll just have her for a while.... she cares about her aurat all the time, she even wore tudung outside her room coz ada non-Muslims... and i remember once when we were in the surau and attent diff meeting but i could still remember her tegas tone warning her clubmates to be qudwah hasanah...her ddemise still taught people a lot of thing... lucky her to be able to teach people ilmu yang berguna yang menjadi bekal buat dia di sana... even Allah chose s very nice day for her... i miss heroh Allah,u bond us together and u too flowerish it... now i've learnt a lot of good deeds from her and i promise to try to follow... and now too i know that as-sam is so near and i'm paying it wif her loss... please ya Allah, place her in ur jannah and forbid her from azab kubur and neraka... aku bersaksi bahawa dia membuat banyak kebaikan Ya Allah dalam menyebarkan agamaMu
sorry for being emotional again, i can't help myself, keep on sedekahkan her with verses from Quran and apply all the ilmu that she gave us, it will be beneficial for her....
Tuesday, 1 June 2010
thank you Allah
this lyrics explains it all
Thank You Allah Lyrics
By: Maher Zain
Artist: Maher ZainAlbum: Thank You AllahCopyright: Awakening Records 2009
Thank You Allah Lyrics
By: Maher Zain
I was so far from you
Yet to me
you were always so close
I wandered lost in the dark
I closed my eyes toward the signs
You put in my way
I walked everyday
Further and further away from you
Ooooo Allah, you brought me home :)
I thank You with every breath I take.
Alhamdulillah,
Alhamdulillah,
Elhamdulillah
All praises to Allah,
All praises to Allah
Alhamdulillah,
Elhamdulillah
All praises to Allah,
All praises to Allah.
I never thought about
I never thought about
All the things you have given to me
I never thanked you once
I was too proud to see the truth
And prostrate to you
Until I took the first step
And that’s when you opened the doors for me
Now Allah,
I realized what I was missing
By being far from you.
Alhamdulillah,
Alhamdulillah,
Elhamdulillah
All praises to Allah,
All praises to Allah
Alhamdulillah,
Elhamdulillah
All praises to Allah,
All praises to Allah.
Allah, I wanna thank You
Allah, I wanna thank You
I wanna thank you for all the things
that you’ve done
You’ve done for me through all my years
I’ve been lost
You guided me
from all the ways
that were wrong
And did you give me hope
O Allah,
O Allah,
I wanna thank you
I wanna thank You
for all the things
that you’ve done
You’ve done for me through all my years
I’ve been lost
You guided me
from all the ways that were wrong
I wanna thank
You for bringing me home
Alhamdulillah,
Alhamdulillah,
Elhamdulillah
All praises to Allah,
All praises to Allah
Alhamdulillah,
Elhamdulillah
All praises to Allah,
All praises to Allah.
Artist: Maher ZainAlbum: Thank You AllahCopyright: Awakening Records 2009
"barang siapa dikehendaki Allah akan mendapat hidayah, Dia akan membukakan dadanya untuk Islam..." (6:125)
hold my hands....
Hold My Hand Lyrics
By: Maher Zain
I hear the flower’s kinda crying loud
The breeze’s sound in sad
Oh no
Tell me when did we become
,So cold and empty inside
Lost a way long time ago
Did we really turn out blind
We don’t see that
we keep hurting each other
noAll we do is just fight
Now we share the same bright sun,
The same round moon
Why don’t we share the same love
Tell me why not
Life is shorter than most have thought
Hold my hand
There are many ways to do it right
Hold my hand
Turn around and see
what we have left behind
Hold my hand
my friend
We can save the good spirit of me and you
For another chance
And let’s pray for a beautiful world
A beautiful world I share with you
Children seem like they’ve lost their smile
On the new blooded playgrounds
Oh no
How could we ignore ,
heartbreaking crying sounds
And we’re still going on
Like nobody really cares
And we just stopped feeling all the pain
because
Like it’s a daily basic affair
Now we share the same bright sun,
The same round moon
Why don’t we share the same love
Tell me why not
Life is shorter than most have thought
Hold my hand
There are many ways to do it right
Hold my hand
Turn around and see what we have left behind
Hold my hand my friend
We can save the good spirit of me and you
For another chance
And let’s pray for a beautiful world
A beautiful world I share with you
No matter how far I might be
I’m always gonne be your neighbor
There’s only one small planet where to be
So I’m always gonna be your neighbor
We cannot hide,
we can’t deny
That we’re always gonna be neighbors
You’re neighbor, my neighbor
We’re neighbors
So hold my hand
There are many ways to do it right
Hold my hand
Turn around and see what have left behind
So hold my hand
There are many ways to do it right
Hold my hand
Turn around and see what have left behind
Hold my hand my friend
We can save the good spirit of me and you
For another chance
And let’s pray for a beautiful world
A beautiful world I share with you
Artist: Maher ZainAlbum: Thank You AllahLyrics: Bilal HajjiMelody: Maher ZainArrangement: Maher ZainCopyright: Awakening Records 2009
By: Maher Zain
I hear the flower’s kinda crying loud
The breeze’s sound in sad
Oh no
Tell me when did we become
,So cold and empty inside
Lost a way long time ago
Did we really turn out blind
We don’t see that
we keep hurting each other
noAll we do is just fight
Now we share the same bright sun,
The same round moon
Why don’t we share the same love
Tell me why not
Life is shorter than most have thought
Hold my hand
There are many ways to do it right
Hold my hand
Turn around and see
what we have left behind
Hold my hand
my friend
We can save the good spirit of me and you
For another chance
And let’s pray for a beautiful world
A beautiful world I share with you
Children seem like they’ve lost their smile
On the new blooded playgrounds
Oh no
How could we ignore ,
heartbreaking crying sounds
And we’re still going on
Like nobody really cares
And we just stopped feeling all the pain
because
Like it’s a daily basic affair
Now we share the same bright sun,
The same round moon
Why don’t we share the same love
Tell me why not
Life is shorter than most have thought
Hold my hand
There are many ways to do it right
Hold my hand
Turn around and see what we have left behind
Hold my hand my friend
We can save the good spirit of me and you
For another chance
And let’s pray for a beautiful world
A beautiful world I share with you
No matter how far I might be
I’m always gonne be your neighbor
There’s only one small planet where to be
So I’m always gonna be your neighbor
We cannot hide,
we can’t deny
That we’re always gonna be neighbors
You’re neighbor, my neighbor
We’re neighbors
So hold my hand
There are many ways to do it right
Hold my hand
Turn around and see what have left behind
So hold my hand
There are many ways to do it right
Hold my hand
Turn around and see what have left behind
Hold my hand my friend
We can save the good spirit of me and you
For another chance
And let’s pray for a beautiful world
A beautiful world I share with you
Artist: Maher ZainAlbum: Thank You AllahLyrics: Bilal HajjiMelody: Maher ZainArrangement: Maher ZainCopyright: Awakening Records 2009
Monday, 31 May 2010
grant us syahid ya Allah
salam...
the only thing in my mind is syahid, m not kidding and the lifeline mission definitely.... i don't know either m right or not but i believe the only thing in the activist heart is syahid... they have work so hard, risking themselves, sacrificing their time, their loved ones and if they do these for the sake of humanity or human rights, my logic can't accept it.... there must be one super strong reason that motivate them to continue doing it tho they know that they might die.... and i believe it's because of Allah!!! what a powerful niat they have? i remember ths verses:
"wahai manusia! sesungguhnya kamu telah bekerja keras menuju Tuhanmu, maka kamu akan menemuiNya" (84:6)
"wahai jiwa yang tenang! kembalilah kepada Tuhanmu dengan hati yang rida dan diridaiNya. maka masuklah ke dalam golongan hamba-hambaKu. dan masuklah ke dalam syurgaKu"
(89:27-30)
the verses comfort people, how Allah knows that they are doing and working because of Allah and i belive that Allah welcomes them most. m not praying that they are dieng but if that what they are all working for and that is what Allah want to grant them, why not? it's so nice to meet Allah dalam keadaan syahid...
i envy them indeed,m serious... i keep on asking myself, why didn't Allah choose me to be in Flotilla? why didn't Allah choose me to be with them? why didn't Allah choose me to syahid like the 19 lucky blessful people? and it makes me realise on my amalan towards Him, my sincerity towards Him, my love and trust towards Him.... yeap.... m so far, far, far away.... i know that Rasulullah and sahabat trust and love towards Allac is too far-fetched, but the people in Flotilla are people like me, we are living in the same era.... m so jealous with the liddle kiddy, how luck u are to be given the chance while u are still young.. very.... u are so lucky, all the people in Flotilla coz out of billion people in the world, Allad had chose u to be His ansorullah, u guys must be great till Allah grant u such opportunity...
i know that there are millions of thing to improve on especially my amalan towards Him, how could Allah grant me such opportunity if i still dare to think on dunyah, indulge myself with unnecessary things... true they said that if we want to know who Allah in our heart, we have to check back our solat... if we manage to think only on Him and khusyuk in solat, then we know that Allah is in our heart..... i have to admit that m still far...
i know that this is not the only field to syahid, 9:122.... but i don't know, somehow i believe that i belong to this field, i know that i have limitations what more thinking that m a girl but i just wanna be in this field... i do know that dakwah is equally important.. and perhaps most of my friends are now thinking on how to spread His words effectively and progressively.... tonnes of thing to think on...
m a bit emotional, sorry but still Aishah hopes that u manage to see the unseen :)
the only thing in my mind is syahid, m not kidding and the lifeline mission definitely.... i don't know either m right or not but i believe the only thing in the activist heart is syahid... they have work so hard, risking themselves, sacrificing their time, their loved ones and if they do these for the sake of humanity or human rights, my logic can't accept it.... there must be one super strong reason that motivate them to continue doing it tho they know that they might die.... and i believe it's because of Allah!!! what a powerful niat they have? i remember ths verses:
"wahai manusia! sesungguhnya kamu telah bekerja keras menuju Tuhanmu, maka kamu akan menemuiNya" (84:6)
"wahai jiwa yang tenang! kembalilah kepada Tuhanmu dengan hati yang rida dan diridaiNya. maka masuklah ke dalam golongan hamba-hambaKu. dan masuklah ke dalam syurgaKu"
(89:27-30)
the verses comfort people, how Allah knows that they are doing and working because of Allah and i belive that Allah welcomes them most. m not praying that they are dieng but if that what they are all working for and that is what Allah want to grant them, why not? it's so nice to meet Allah dalam keadaan syahid...
i envy them indeed,m serious... i keep on asking myself, why didn't Allah choose me to be in Flotilla? why didn't Allah choose me to be with them? why didn't Allah choose me to syahid like the 19 lucky blessful people? and it makes me realise on my amalan towards Him, my sincerity towards Him, my love and trust towards Him.... yeap.... m so far, far, far away.... i know that Rasulullah and sahabat trust and love towards Allac is too far-fetched, but the people in Flotilla are people like me, we are living in the same era.... m so jealous with the liddle kiddy, how luck u are to be given the chance while u are still young.. very.... u are so lucky, all the people in Flotilla coz out of billion people in the world, Allad had chose u to be His ansorullah, u guys must be great till Allah grant u such opportunity...
i know that there are millions of thing to improve on especially my amalan towards Him, how could Allah grant me such opportunity if i still dare to think on dunyah, indulge myself with unnecessary things... true they said that if we want to know who Allah in our heart, we have to check back our solat... if we manage to think only on Him and khusyuk in solat, then we know that Allah is in our heart..... i have to admit that m still far...
i know that this is not the only field to syahid, 9:122.... but i don't know, somehow i believe that i belong to this field, i know that i have limitations what more thinking that m a girl but i just wanna be in this field... i do know that dakwah is equally important.. and perhaps most of my friends are now thinking on how to spread His words effectively and progressively.... tonnes of thing to think on...
m a bit emotional, sorry but still Aishah hopes that u manage to see the unseen :)
Wednesday, 26 May 2010
they are at heart....
salam...
there's one thing that keep on bothering me this one week, yes the Palestine people.... i keep on asking myself, what do they want from me and other Muslims? hearing that the lifeline4gaza is reaching the border but enduring a lot of difficulties especially the attack from Israel slap me most of the time, how fortunate they are to risk themselves, how i wish i could be one, one day, insha Allah.... and often i feel useless most of the time for just being an observer, i keep on asking myself, what should i do, tak kanlah nak doa je? is that all that i could, cakap syabab, that full of energy, and now i feel like a stupid useless @@@@@.... and 9:122 comforts me most ofthe time when i have to endure with this internal conflict...
"dan tidak sepatutnya orang-orang mukmin itu semaunya pergi (ke medan perang). mengapa sebahagian dari setiap golongan di antara mereka tidak pergi untuk memperdalam pengetahuan agama mereka dan untuk memberi peringatan kepada kaumnya apabila mereka telah kembali agar mereka dapat menjaga dirinya"
(9:122)
true, so true... while our concern brave brothers are risking their life for sending the food, medicine etc we shouldn't just pray, we have to do sth that equal to what our brothers are doing if we claim that we are Muslims... yes, understand Islam better and spread His words, educate our fellow brothers and sisters so that they know Islam better, develop their awareness and concern towards others Muslims coz we are all brothers and sisters...
dear people....
m reminding myself as well, we have a lot of work to be done... we don't have any more time to indulge ourselves with unnecesary things, there are lots more thing to work on other than our own personal feelings, lets develop the awareness, lets bring back the glory of Islam coz we'll be questionned on our deeds in the Hereafter.... lets be individu Muslim, Islam doesn't need us but we need Islam as our ad-dden... Islam is the solution for all the chaos, bring back Islam, bring back Islam, bring back Islam.....
"wahai orang yang berselimut! bangunlah, lalu berilah peringatan! dan agungkanlah Tuhanmu, dan bersihkanlah pakaianmu, dan tinggalkanlah segala yang keji"
(74:1-5)
aishah hopes that u manage to see the unseen
there's one thing that keep on bothering me this one week, yes the Palestine people.... i keep on asking myself, what do they want from me and other Muslims? hearing that the lifeline4gaza is reaching the border but enduring a lot of difficulties especially the attack from Israel slap me most of the time, how fortunate they are to risk themselves, how i wish i could be one, one day, insha Allah.... and often i feel useless most of the time for just being an observer, i keep on asking myself, what should i do, tak kanlah nak doa je? is that all that i could, cakap syabab, that full of energy, and now i feel like a stupid useless @@@@@.... and 9:122 comforts me most ofthe time when i have to endure with this internal conflict...
"dan tidak sepatutnya orang-orang mukmin itu semaunya pergi (ke medan perang). mengapa sebahagian dari setiap golongan di antara mereka tidak pergi untuk memperdalam pengetahuan agama mereka dan untuk memberi peringatan kepada kaumnya apabila mereka telah kembali agar mereka dapat menjaga dirinya"
(9:122)
true, so true... while our concern brave brothers are risking their life for sending the food, medicine etc we shouldn't just pray, we have to do sth that equal to what our brothers are doing if we claim that we are Muslims... yes, understand Islam better and spread His words, educate our fellow brothers and sisters so that they know Islam better, develop their awareness and concern towards others Muslims coz we are all brothers and sisters...
dear people....
m reminding myself as well, we have a lot of work to be done... we don't have any more time to indulge ourselves with unnecesary things, there are lots more thing to work on other than our own personal feelings, lets develop the awareness, lets bring back the glory of Islam coz we'll be questionned on our deeds in the Hereafter.... lets be individu Muslim, Islam doesn't need us but we need Islam as our ad-dden... Islam is the solution for all the chaos, bring back Islam, bring back Islam, bring back Islam.....
"wahai orang yang berselimut! bangunlah, lalu berilah peringatan! dan agungkanlah Tuhanmu, dan bersihkanlah pakaianmu, dan tinggalkanlah segala yang keji"
(74:1-5)
aishah hopes that u manage to see the unseen
Tuesday, 25 May 2010
BM
salam...
it doesn't stand for bahasa melayu,but yes it stands for baitul muslim.... no i'm not saying that i'm gonna say hi to this stage no, it's not the time yet...
for all this while i've been wondering why do people get married coz i just can't understand why, may for the girls they people to protect, easy for them to travel etc... we were having a 10minutes kuliah last week and i accidentally asked the naqibah this question, i know that coolsem shouldn't discuss this topic and i was speechless for her answer.. for a daie, dua't, they choose to get married when dakwah requires them to get married, and they do that for the sake of the continuity of dakwah itself besides the dakwah itself that later will require us to educate people about baitul muslim... ya Allah, this is the answer that i've been looking for coz i just don't understand before this...
if we fall in love with people because he has done a lot of good deeds for us, what's the different between our love and pets love towards the owner?
tonnes of thing to ponder upon now, chal now realise her purpose of life, u? hope to write sth about my POI later on, insha Allah...
hope that u manage to see the unseen
it doesn't stand for bahasa melayu,but yes it stands for baitul muslim.... no i'm not saying that i'm gonna say hi to this stage no, it's not the time yet...
for all this while i've been wondering why do people get married coz i just can't understand why, may for the girls they people to protect, easy for them to travel etc... we were having a 10minutes kuliah last week and i accidentally asked the naqibah this question, i know that coolsem shouldn't discuss this topic and i was speechless for her answer.. for a daie, dua't, they choose to get married when dakwah requires them to get married, and they do that for the sake of the continuity of dakwah itself besides the dakwah itself that later will require us to educate people about baitul muslim... ya Allah, this is the answer that i've been looking for coz i just don't understand before this...
if we fall in love with people because he has done a lot of good deeds for us, what's the different between our love and pets love towards the owner?
tonnes of thing to ponder upon now, chal now realise her purpose of life, u? hope to write sth about my POI later on, insha Allah...
hope that u manage to see the unseen
Tuesday, 11 May 2010
POI
salam....
i don't wanna say much, perhaps this is time to change, a change... from a persan to a human and perhaps this is the time for me to be better servant...
dear Lord,
gimme strength to go through this, gimme chance to be better in the world and the Hereafter....
chal wants to be a real Aishah, an Umar, a Khaulah... pray for her
i don't wanna say much, perhaps this is time to change, a change... from a persan to a human and perhaps this is the time for me to be better servant...
dear Lord,
gimme strength to go through this, gimme chance to be better in the world and the Hereafter....
chal wants to be a real Aishah, an Umar, a Khaulah... pray for her
Monday, 15 March 2010
last teen!!!!
salam....
tonnes of thng happen and i can feel little by little changes happen, perhaps we're all growing up... i realised one thing, one thng that hitted me most, i always dare to dream, dare to walk my dreams but don't have the guts to face the reality... n i did expect that life will be this crazy but i thought that it just a dream, but seems that Allah knows that i aam capable of handling it....
i gave a talk at SK LKTP Kemasul and i myself touched when i told them the purpose of us working hard is not to succeed but to actually fulfill the task that Allah has given us, we work hard to be who we wanna be because we know that only we deserve for that task/post. failure of us working on that will result in ruining everything, and most important we are accountable on that.... i think it just hard to explain but Paulo's book had helped me a lot.... tho he mentioned a lot on Bible, but i can that he is somehow relating it with the Quran and not many people are ready to talk about life, for us, life is just life but we always forget that life has tonnes of thing to reveal on..... n m working very hard in turning my living into a life, a life that is full of blessing.. ameen
i will say that changes is hard, and yes it is... leaving something that u're used to do is soooo hard, n i do admit that i am being hypocrite for all this while, i act differently in front of collegians, adapting myself with them, living our life like wut we used to be... but after i know that all i've been doing are wrong, i try to leave little by little but dealing with people expectation and perception, i feel it hard coz they always make things harder and complicated... and i feel like carried away whenever i talk to collegians what more meeting them, often i feel ashame on what we are doing but dunno, we are just soooo proud of doing it, ya Allah, forgive us on that...
i know that lots of thing coming in, n i welcome them.... and indeed this short holls is totally an escapism, lari dari realiti or may be i should put it in a better phrase, preparing myself to face more atrocious world....
welcome, welcome and welcome.... chal will surely working to work on those coz now she has the strong believe that she has been searching for, He is always there =)
my naqibah told me that the reason why we are in this path is not because of our prayers, but because of people's prayers that felt teraniaya or may be our parents prayers but most important others prayers, not us...
p/s: this is all nonsense
p/s/s: i am getting more curious about my pen-pal....
tonnes of thng happen and i can feel little by little changes happen, perhaps we're all growing up... i realised one thing, one thng that hitted me most, i always dare to dream, dare to walk my dreams but don't have the guts to face the reality... n i did expect that life will be this crazy but i thought that it just a dream, but seems that Allah knows that i aam capable of handling it....
i gave a talk at SK LKTP Kemasul and i myself touched when i told them the purpose of us working hard is not to succeed but to actually fulfill the task that Allah has given us, we work hard to be who we wanna be because we know that only we deserve for that task/post. failure of us working on that will result in ruining everything, and most important we are accountable on that.... i think it just hard to explain but Paulo's book had helped me a lot.... tho he mentioned a lot on Bible, but i can that he is somehow relating it with the Quran and not many people are ready to talk about life, for us, life is just life but we always forget that life has tonnes of thing to reveal on..... n m working very hard in turning my living into a life, a life that is full of blessing.. ameen
i will say that changes is hard, and yes it is... leaving something that u're used to do is soooo hard, n i do admit that i am being hypocrite for all this while, i act differently in front of collegians, adapting myself with them, living our life like wut we used to be... but after i know that all i've been doing are wrong, i try to leave little by little but dealing with people expectation and perception, i feel it hard coz they always make things harder and complicated... and i feel like carried away whenever i talk to collegians what more meeting them, often i feel ashame on what we are doing but dunno, we are just soooo proud of doing it, ya Allah, forgive us on that...
i know that lots of thing coming in, n i welcome them.... and indeed this short holls is totally an escapism, lari dari realiti or may be i should put it in a better phrase, preparing myself to face more atrocious world....
welcome, welcome and welcome.... chal will surely working to work on those coz now she has the strong believe that she has been searching for, He is always there =)
my naqibah told me that the reason why we are in this path is not because of our prayers, but because of people's prayers that felt teraniaya or may be our parents prayers but most important others prayers, not us...
p/s: this is all nonsense
p/s/s: i am getting more curious about my pen-pal....
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