last teen!!!!

salam....

tonnes of thng happen and i can feel little by little changes happen, perhaps we're all growing up... i realised one thing, one thng that hitted me most, i always dare to dream, dare to walk my dreams but don't have the guts to face the reality... n i did expect that life will be this crazy but i thought that it just a dream, but seems that Allah knows that i aam capable of handling it....

i gave a talk at SK LKTP Kemasul and i myself touched when i told them the purpose of us working hard is not to succeed but to actually fulfill the task that Allah has given us, we work hard to be who we wanna be because we know that only we deserve for that task/post. failure of us working on that will result in ruining everything, and most important we are accountable on that.... i think it just hard to explain but Paulo's book had helped me a lot.... tho he mentioned a lot on Bible, but i can that he is somehow relating it with the Quran and not many people are ready to talk about life, for us, life is just life but we always forget that life has tonnes of thing to reveal on..... n m working very hard in turning my living into a life, a life that is full of blessing.. ameen

i will say that changes is hard, and yes it is... leaving something that u're used to do is soooo hard, n i do admit that i am being hypocrite for all this while, i act differently in front of collegians, adapting myself with them, living our life like wut we used to be... but after i know that all i've been doing are wrong, i try to leave little by little but dealing with people expectation and perception, i feel it hard coz they always make things harder and complicated... and i feel like carried away whenever i talk to collegians what more meeting them, often i feel ashame on what we are doing but dunno, we are just soooo proud of doing it, ya Allah, forgive us on that...

i know that lots of thing coming in, n i welcome them.... and indeed this short holls is totally an escapism, lari dari realiti or may be i should put it in a better phrase, preparing myself to face more atrocious world....

welcome, welcome and welcome.... chal will surely working to work on those coz now she has the strong believe that she has been searching for, He is always there =)

my naqibah told me that the reason why we are in this path is not because of our prayers, but because of people's prayers that felt teraniaya or may be our parents prayers but most important others prayers, not us...

p/s: this is all nonsense
p/s/s: i am getting more curious about my pen-pal....