salam...
the only thing in my mind is syahid, m not kidding and the lifeline mission definitely.... i don't know either m right or not but i believe the only thing in the activist heart is syahid... they have work so hard, risking themselves, sacrificing their time, their loved ones and if they do these for the sake of humanity or human rights, my logic can't accept it.... there must be one super strong reason that motivate them to continue doing it tho they know that they might die.... and i believe it's because of Allah!!! what a powerful niat they have? i remember ths verses:
"wahai manusia! sesungguhnya kamu telah bekerja keras menuju Tuhanmu, maka kamu akan menemuiNya" (84:6)
"wahai jiwa yang tenang! kembalilah kepada Tuhanmu dengan hati yang rida dan diridaiNya. maka masuklah ke dalam golongan hamba-hambaKu. dan masuklah ke dalam syurgaKu"
(89:27-30)
the verses comfort people, how Allah knows that they are doing and working because of Allah and i belive that Allah welcomes them most. m not praying that they are dieng but if that what they are all working for and that is what Allah want to grant them, why not? it's so nice to meet Allah dalam keadaan syahid...
i envy them indeed,m serious... i keep on asking myself, why didn't Allah choose me to be in Flotilla? why didn't Allah choose me to be with them? why didn't Allah choose me to syahid like the 19 lucky blessful people? and it makes me realise on my amalan towards Him, my sincerity towards Him, my love and trust towards Him.... yeap.... m so far, far, far away.... i know that Rasulullah and sahabat trust and love towards Allac is too far-fetched, but the people in Flotilla are people like me, we are living in the same era.... m so jealous with the liddle kiddy, how luck u are to be given the chance while u are still young.. very.... u are so lucky, all the people in Flotilla coz out of billion people in the world, Allad had chose u to be His ansorullah, u guys must be great till Allah grant u such opportunity...
i know that there are millions of thing to improve on especially my amalan towards Him, how could Allah grant me such opportunity if i still dare to think on dunyah, indulge myself with unnecessary things... true they said that if we want to know who Allah in our heart, we have to check back our solat... if we manage to think only on Him and khusyuk in solat, then we know that Allah is in our heart..... i have to admit that m still far...
i know that this is not the only field to syahid, 9:122.... but i don't know, somehow i believe that i belong to this field, i know that i have limitations what more thinking that m a girl but i just wanna be in this field... i do know that dakwah is equally important.. and perhaps most of my friends are now thinking on how to spread His words effectively and progressively.... tonnes of thing to think on...
m a bit emotional, sorry but still Aishah hopes that u manage to see the unseen :)
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