SALJ!

Assalamualaikum warahmatullah..

 

I am writing this to myself and you. It's been months since I last write. That reflects how drain I am, perhaps.

 

It's been snowing for 5 days, since Friday. It stops for a while. I walk on the snow while some are still falling. I look out the window from my room, and that tiny little drops mesmerize me. Snow is not the reason why i am here. really! That contributes to why I wasn't that exciting since my first snow. But when that little drops keep on coming, I strongly believe that Allah is teaching me something. something that i try to find even until now.

For the first few days of snow, I keep on thinking on what do I learn from the snow. i gotta walk to university. It's slippery. It makes the journey even harder. I was whispering through out my journey, Allah is teaching that no matter how atrocious life is, life goes on. I have to go on. I have to keep on moving. Regardless of the unfavourable weather, the cold, the slippery pathways. LIFE GOES ON!

My stance was changed on Friday. I got out early in the morning for group discussion. Striving to be there as early as possible but 20 minutes late. the discussion wasn't that satisfactory. I was about to pack my stuffs and leave for the Friday prayer. It's been months since i last sit down properly, listening to the khatib. My group mate told me that classes are cancelled. I was smirking. Thinking and pondering. I walked into the prayer hall, listened to the khatib. I felt tranquil. khutbah ended and I knew that the tough journey home started. Allah! the snow was heavy, I walked full hearted. The traffic was terrible, and for the first time in my life here, I saw traffic jam from university to home. Everyone was looking at  me weirdly. Very few people walked in the snow because people don't walk in heavy snow!. The snow was thick. I keep on walking. tired! slippery! as I moved, my mind kept thinking.  I never thought that university and city would be paralysed just because of snow. It is tiny. But they are not. Seeing that little drop, I wouldn't expect that little drop when unite could drive human paralysed! serious. I kept walking. It is surprising that finally human admitted their weaknesses and surrender the nature. and I wonder, if people can follow nature, why can't they surrender to the creator of nature?

"akhirnya manusia tunduk kepada alam,

mari tunduk kepada Tuhan pencipta alam"

people started posting pictures on facebook. I got annoyed may be. some started sharing this verse.

"Have you not seen how God drives along the clouds, then joins them together, then makes them into a stack, and then you see the rain come out of it? And He sends down from the sky mountain masses (of clouds) with cold hail in them, striking with it anyone He wills and averting it from anyone He wills. The brightness of His lightning almost blinds the sight."
(The Qur'an, 24:43)

alhamdulillah, people realised that the snow is from Allah. no, I'm not going to repeat what others have said. i just want to highlight " striking with it anyone He wills and averting it from anyone He wills"

Going through the verse again and again, Allah allows me to ponder. He lets the snow strike me with His wills. That is a true reminder! it is His wills for me to witness snow. It is His wills that keeps me living. It His wills that makes me who i am today. And with His wills, to Him i should return.

That's the biggest lesson i learn from MR. Salj. Amazing how that little drop is actually from His wills, and even mesmerize when every tiny little drop that i see is in His accordance.

thank you Allah for the biggest, beautiful lesson. i know that You want me to keep in remembering You through Sunshine and snow, come thunder and strong wind.

from You i came, to You i shall return, and may You give me strength to live in the present for You...

ya Allah,

may every little whitey drop that You are sending, improve my iman and make me closer to You and be among the believers.

sungguh. tiada daya dan upaya kita selain dari Allah.

p/s: aishah hopes you see the unseen

 

p/s/s: iman itu licin macam salji tak?

assalamualaikum warahmatullah.

second eid adha away from home. i was suffocating actually. trying hardly to really understand what eid adha is supposed to mean. may Allah forgive me for my weaknesses to really treasure eid adha.

had a rush early in the morning. alhamdulillah, listening to the khutbah asleep. but something is missing, i just don't know what. and Allah comforted my by giving me  a chance to perform solat beside a sister, from Turkey i guess. and after giving salam, she quickly shaked my hands, kissed me and greated me with eid mubarak. bliss. i just couldn't explain. hearing someone praying for my goodness is really a bliss. being love. may Allah reward you with greatness sister. but sooner later, the atmosphere was filled with selamat hari raya wishes. Allah. i just couldn't take it. no, no. this is not what i am seearching for. it couldn't be just a plain selamat hari raya wishes. plain. dull. you say it all. i tried searching for other muslims, greating them with eid muabarak. and alhamdulillah, arabic class in the evening enlighten me.

journey to cardiff. i was exhausted to be honest. too tired actually. listening to the recordings, trying hard not to asleep but unfortunately dozzed off. and i was plain at that time. praying full heartedly that Allah will teach me something for this eid. teach me something big this eid. i want to treasure eid by heart.

and waking up from sleep in mosque. Allah. what a bliss!

had taujih on ISK. jubilant. menghidupkan hati yang telah lama mati dengan himmah dan hamasah.

had a wrap from a Palestinian who owned a restaurant. Allah! and before i left the shop, the owner greeted me with Fi amanillah. another doa, alhamdulillah.

my ticket back to coventry was via birmingham. i was supposed to take any train that will stop at birmingham and change it before taking another train to coventry. but i've gotta change twice. Allah. i don't want. i want to change once. i am just too tired. and i wanna have a long sleep. i was supposed to change at bristol parkway, the ticket collector told me that but i refused. i chose to sleep till reading.

i was in the train and waiting for the ticket collector. greeted him and allowing him to check on my ticket.before something that really made me ponder all the way back.

"u've taken the wrong way!"
"what?" (yes. i know.)
"u should be taking train via birmingham. i'll let u off today. but somebody might not in future".
"yes. thank you very much".

and that's the biggest tarbiyyah for my journey to cardiff. i was just too tired, and i just wanna get rest. but i've taken the wrong way. rehat kan di syurga?

thank you Allah for that. truly enlighten my day after i was just thinking about relaxing. getting enough sleep.

a big reminder for myself. alhamdulillah, it was from ticket driver. imagine in the day of akhirah, when Allah said, "u've taken the wrong way"

na'uzubillah. Allah.

keep us on the right path.
the path of those upon whom Thou hast bestowed favors. not of those upon whom Thy wrath is brought down, nor of those who go astray.
(Al-Fatiha:6,7)

alhamdulillah, Al-Fatiha means deeper to me now.

sunnguh! tiada daya dan upaya kita selain dari Allah

p/s: aishah hopes u see the unseen

assalamualaikum warahmatullah....

few weeks ago:

cried terribly seeing mr tan's pictures in Turkey. including captions. ya Allah sampaikanlah. i desperately need that...

few days ago:

someone gave me a business class ticket to Turkey. i was about to pack when suddenly my hand pressed the snooze button. cried. ya Allah, sampaikanlah....

yesterday:

edgi (a Turkish): u went to Yemen last summer?
ben (an English): i did.
edgi: i went to Palestine last summer.
me: what? u went to Palestine? serious?
edgi: I did.
me: what did you do over there?
edgi: we had a summer camp. helping the kids. we went there with our groups of pilots.
me: where on Palestine did you go?
edgi: Westbank. we stayed there for 3 months..

my heart was exploding. ya Allah. why so hard? a Turkish. went to Palestine. what a complete set.
and the trials to really beriman with this ayat increasing.

"And it does not beseem the believers that they should go forth all together; why should not then a company from every party from among them go forth that they may apply themselves to obtain understanding in religion, and that they may warn their people when they come back to them that they may be cautious"          (at-Taubah:122)

Allah. weak. i am. even a verse is hard for you to really accept open heartily and work into amal.

oh, ben and edgi are just 20. Allah. i try. i am trying my best actually to really beriman with that verse, accepting the fact that my battle field is here. accepting the fact that going to Gaza is not everything, that's not my goal, redha Allah is. and where ever i am, when ever it is, pleasing Allah is my only desire. astaghfirullah, how intelligent syaitan is. even going to Gaza can actually be wrong if the goal is to satisfy our heart, not Allah.

may Allah place me in Gaza or where ever place that He is please with. and may Allah allow me to meet the Palestinians where ever and  when ever He likes, if not here, insha Allah in the here after.

sungguh! tiada daya dan upaya kita selain dari Allah

p/s: aishah hopes you see the unseen

salam...

2 years had passed after SPM ended... loads of thing happening, here and there, outside and inside that somehow made me who i am today, hehs....
looking back at those was not easy, it leads to amalgam of feelings, of course hating those day and wish that that was not u but realising that was ur past, nothing can be done other than being thankful to Allah for giving u chance to improve for the better...

and if two years back, i was having tonnes of questions on Islam, alhamdulillah, here i am willing and ready to share with people about Islam, praise be upon Allah...

and this blog aged 2 years, this engraves myself, my ups and downs, my POI and lots more... and it is meant to read and learn from my mistakes, may Allah give everyone strength and guidance to be better, ameen...

here goes my first post, exactly 2 years back :p
http://chalsini.blogspot.com/2008/12/salam-maal-hijrah.html

aishah hopes u manage to see the unseen...

transformation

salam....

we finished our duty as volunteer for netball game successfully i gues.... since kasukma started, kmb seems to have a new life, a new fresh breath i guess... seeing them coming down early for the training, as eraly as seven till 2 in the afternoon, cheering and supporting each other tho their friends are making mistakes, putting aside their meal for the sake of playing and lots more sacrifaction make my tears running.... if only this spirit can be transformed into jihad spirit...

and suddenly, my imagination on battles during Rasulullah time coming in....
it was raining, quite heavily... but the netball players keep on palying, passing the ball, slipping, going through the rain, putting themselves into the risk of having fever, they keep on play till they won the game.... and i remember during Battle of Badr, when Rasulullah and sshabats went through the rain.... and during Battle of Ahzab, when Allah sent down heavy rain to sweep away the musyrikin, SUBHANALLAH.... its for different aim, with the same intention: TO WIN...

kmb was having a tough match with kuala nerang, very.... and there was one time when kmb was leading by one mark, just one... and everyone was hoping of course for the victory... and the debaran and hope and fear that we feel remind me on Rasullullah feeling during Battle of Badr when he sobbed terribly asking for the victory till Abu Bakr came and cooled him down telling him that Allah will surely give them victory...

and ffinally we lost to kuala nerang.... aini, the catain suddenly collapsed and we were running for her, bringing her to the tent... i remember the story during Battle of Uhud, when a lot of sahabats were injured... i now understand the meaning of worriness... i cried while holding her up, praying that she's not gonna die for this game... and deep down in my heart, i wish that it was a war, and my friends were injured and i pray that they will syahid...

i cn't stop tears from running out for every game, Tuhan, aku rindukan jihad... aku rindukan dan mahukan semangat serta kebolehan yang dimiliki setiap umat diletakkan pada tempat yang sepatutnya... anugerahkan aku semangat untuk berjihad mengembalikan kegemilngan islam agar dapat aku letakkan islam pada haknya yang teratas....

ya muqalllibalqulub,
tsabitqulubana 'ala dinik,
wa'ala toatik,
wa'ala syahadatik,
wa'ala jihadatik,
fisabilik,
innakani'mal maula hu wa ni'mannasir....

in love

salam....

after few months of silent, now only i feel like sharing.... i think life is interesting, of course it is, being an Ib student makes me realise that life is about trial and error, u keep on trying....

we just finished our sports carnival, seniors graduation yesterday and i went out for buying the students tickets on friday... in simple words, i don't have time studying... that is fine if only my week is like anybody else.... i'm having maths and statistics test tomorrow and physics on tueday...i haven't finish my economics commentaries and my extended essay.. not to forget my TOK essay... what more revising my sem 1 and sem2 syllabus.... call me crazy for still involving myself in all the MPP work.... often is ask myself on why am i doing all this...sacrifaction is not always easy but thats what i have to do often... don't ask me about sleep coz i seldom get enough sleep... it will all be waste if i'm doing all this for myself, for CAS and for any other stupid things... the only thing why i keep on moving is because i wanna prepare myself for a world that won't last...i'm tired thinking about the world's problem, it never end..... i always love the feeling when Allah keeps me going tho i feel like the world is on my shoulders.... thats the power of niat... MPP life is not easy, IB some more, naqibah, sehati serumpun and lots more... but knowing that ALlah is looking for all ths, i know that i have to work full-heartedly for this path, i know that i gotta prepare my best for the here after..... and oh ALLAH, please allevaiate my way, i'm seeking and begging for ur love and i can't wait to meet u, i need u always and i need u to keep on going.... give me a good date with u later on, i love u....

and i remember a hadith saying that those that ALlah wants good things about him/her, ALlah will grant him the understanding on Islam... and i think odah got that... often i cry shocking with the amazing Allah's works... when Allah gives her the understanding, i couldn't ask for more and please Allah, speed up her way in this path, i love her and i want her to be together in jannah...

ya Allah,
tsabatkan kami di jalanMu, anugerahkan kami kecintaan terhadap pertemuan denganMu melebihi kecintaan kami terhadap dunia dan seluruh isinya, masukkan aku dalam golongan yang engkau redhai dan anugerahkan aku syahid di jalanMu...

p/s: Aishah hopes that u manage to see the unseen

s.a.k.i.t

salam...

tonnes of thing in my head and i just feel like spilling... i can't still adjust with the fact that jannah is no longer around, often i feel that she is around, i need the smile... ya Allah, m not protesting on ur fate but i can't deny the fact that i miss her soooo much... i know that people come and go but good people seldom come but they always go.... it's not easy to deal with the fact that u npw become the reference sedangkan u use to refer on somebody else... m building the strength and i know that Allah is around me to work with...

i can't deny that m scared of death, n it makes me worry on it too much... i was close with jannah and we have a lot of similarities... the 3rd child, rebellious and lots more... u name it all... we both love palestine and hoping to go there one day, insha Allah... and these similarities makem me feel that i'll be the next among our friends and i have to admit that i can't wait but still worry thinking on my amalan...

i don't feel like sambung IB after knowing and realising that this is an Israel system and i can't force myself to believe that Allah will redha my path... i don't feel like studying all the fardhu kifayah thinking that m still weak and horrible in my fardhu ain... i feel so far from Allah and m worry that i can't smile on the last day of my life.... m scared thinking that syurga is just for obedient servant of Allah because i've done a lot sin and i feel so bad about it... i feel so envy knowing that jannah meets Allah with pure heart without intention to get married while m having a lot of masalah hati....

m not asking for solutions cause i know that Allah will help me to work this out... i just have to keep on going... i wanna be an Aishah, a Khaulah, an Umar...

and m working all these out while waiting for the day to meet Him :)

oh Allah, anugerahkan aku kecintaan terhadap pertemuan denganMu melebihi kecintaanku terhadap dunia dan isinya....

surviving=)

salam...



has been months, i know.... chal is soooo an idle, dunno.. feel so bad to blog, i mean blogging sometimes can be tiring, may be bcoz we gotta put our feeling in it kot, may be not for others but yes for me.... lots of thng happen, not that i wanna share but i just thnk that thnking too much about it is useless, let it be, hehs...



sem 1 has finished, done with it, ALhamdulillah, but spooky how time flies, hehs... i never thought that sem exam can be like spm, evryone study like hell n u can see people moving with books, stay up n etc.... man, i can't live with it, hehs...... unlike them, i was busy with the tickets, yes i incharge on da tickets, hehs... went to Pudu friday n sunday, getting da tickets done, buka counter, call people etc,... n i learnt a lot of thngs throught out my life as welfare bureau n Alhamdulillah, little by little, i manage to eradicate myself from the coll shell n i thank Allah for that =) being a collegian(once a collegian always a collegian rite?), i got so many do's n don't's.. but afta being one of da mpp's i need to leave some of them n i found it difficult at da fst place... if before ths i ignore all da unkown no, i walk straight without gvng glance dekat people, i don't gv a damn on wut happen to coll but now da situation hs changed at least 180dgrees, heeeeeeeeeeeeee....



as welfare bureau, commonly knows as someone u can always rely on, i gotta change myself little by little.... i started to get myself ok wif all da unknown no, normally dealing wif tckets, i started to walk wif at least a smile n now Alhamdulillah, i can deal with boys normally, no more cuak tho their voice sgt lah menakutkan =p... but most important, now i know on how to deal wif diff people n wut u need is patience, yeap i got da passion for all ths while but now m cultvatng patience =) n i thank Allah for giving me the opportunity to improve myself for da better =)



n i love my mpp family =) we are complementing each other, n i found that Allah has been allevaiting my path, my task n my life, Alhamdulillah =) n thanx to my mpp family for always there to lend their hand, special thanks to:



DEEB- for sticking up =)

TAPAH- for helping me out wif ur bernas idea =)

ADRI- for ur presence n for sharing ur xperiences =)

FATS- for coloring my life =)

GOH- for pushing my work to the limit =)

SYED- for being da coolest along ever =)

SYAKIR- for invegilating my work, feel secured =)

FIZREE- for always asking on my progress =)

BESSI- for helping me out wif da announcements =)

JANNAH- for always make me feel nearer to HIm =)

ALIIMRAN- for actvating my creative part =)

FAZMI- for making me feel that life is sooo easy =)

KHAi- for making me realise on my s****** to live in coll shell =)

SAM- for helping me out wif my english =)

n yeah.. thanx guys... hope ths everlast bond will help us through out our journey to accomplish our mission, making global players with malaysian identity =), insha Allah



n i can't deny da fact that sometimes i do feel like flagging, sated n even jaded =( n when ths come, i always wish that i can go to matrix n have fun wif others, ok i know that it soundss so wrong, matrix life is even busier, hehs... dunno... i do miss them, muazzam my KP?? funny yet alim in his own way, the one that always remind me =) PQ, n nasi ekonomi.. =) wawa n his loghat penang, balik evry week =), een n her scandal yg banyak nak mampos =), wanie a KISASian tapi still gila =), bro afiq yg sengal =), k echah, n lots more to mention =))) i love u guys tho we are far far away, do tell me whenever u guys nak buat reunion =)



n i do feel that KMPP is soooo homey.... its nice to be there, duno.. i usually hypnotized whenevr da mak cik use loghat utara in conversation, dunno, may be i usually forget that loghat utara can't just be spoken only at home, hehs.. stupid i know... i miss kmpp..... i was sooo thrifty when i was there, impressive i know but now...... man, chal is getting crazier especially wif da food =))))



afta chatting wif alya, i feel glad n lucky to be in KMB, to be given da opportunity to live in community that encourage me to be good, usrah n cera,ah are compulsary, Alhamdulillah... n for all ths while, i thought coll is a good islamic environment, i thought we've been practising Islam fully in coll but i was soooooooooooooooo wrong... n i find it difficult to adapt wif life here, i wanna be good n i know that i gotta be but i thnk it justttttttt so hard to follow the seniors n i've decided to make it in my own way, m giving myself time for that, n insha Allah.... wearing socks, eating in dulang, kiss dekat cheek n wut more u name it, da thngs that we never did in coll n it just sooo hard n i find that the seniors areeee sooo nice, they don't lawan if da boys shushing n ths makes me sgt lah geram.... but never mind, m adapting wif it =), isnha Allah....



oh, my stats teacher, mr Bada, halau me 2 times from class, stupid n funny i know but wut to do, hehs.... in KMB, they got stereotypes on medic n engine students, hehs... n m proud to be known as an engineering student, hahahahha/// i know zack will surely piss wif ths, but hey thats da reality, engine n medic is sooooooooooooo different =)



gtg, dats da update so far....

chal is still leaving Alhamdulillah

n she'll continue surviving in her Ib life, insha Allah...

m scared of changing but if thats wut it takes to be better, i'll do it...

chal hopes that u manage to see the unseen =)

merbahian n changgangian

salam....

i do miss bukit merbah like hell.... it's too different compared to here, bukit changgang.... da environment especially, which i think it's kinda hard for me to adapt myself to the surrounding....

being merbahians, we were trained to live with pride and seniority.... i was shocked to know that the seniors are all tnice and the seniors even can take the syer for the juniors,i know it's a good thing but i used to think that there must be reasons why they make it that way..... n we were trainedto actually "respect" the seniors... that's the main reason why i becoma staid in front of them but they usually take it the wronng way, they thought that since m a merbahian, m arrogant... what the fudge? we were trained to look at the seniors eyes' and jokes are theirs not ours.... look at them with pleasant and eager face, use polite words and be nice but here.... it's hell different..... seniors are like frens, u need to be friends with... and yeah, i find it difficult to adapt..... i miss seremban...

as merbahians, we were trained to be smart and not polite... i don't think we have the word in our daily dictionary... we act smartly, and we believe that we have equal chance like the boys... and yeah, we argue a lot, we give ideas and etc but it contradicts the nature here where girls are meant to follow the boys... yes, u can give ideas but at the end, it's better tofollow the boys... and as merbahians that are used to cheers, lectures, and etc.... it's a common for us to have rough voice,we are not polite i know... we laugh like hell, we support each other by cheering, we love each other by expressing our feelings but they are all contradict... sangat.... it is quite impossible ti find girls laugh like orang gila except merbahians, and we keep on reminding ourselves that we are now in bukit changgang... and it's kinda hard for uus to be polite, i mean talk softly, smile sweetly, and walk nicely.....

as merbahians, we were trained to speak confidently, we believe that we are smart and we used to talk to the seniors like we are smart, but here others usually take it wrongly.... they usually think that we are cocky, which i believe that we are not... we were trained to be stain in front of the seniors and follow their instructions without any objections....

that is just too little.... but after all, chal knows one thing, THINGS WILL NEVER BE EASIER, U JUST NEED TO BE BETTER!!! it is impossible to turn bukit changgang into bukit merbah, but chal knows that she needs to adapt herself to the environment WITHOUT neglecting and forgetting her identity as merbahian... ellmo is right, u'll only appreciate life as merbahians when u are in somewhere else because there is no other place like bukit merbah, u can't never find one... i do hope that i can go there in august... insha allah....

it's not about putting urself in the world, it's about putting the world in u;IF ONLY U"RE GREAT ENOUGH.....

proud to be a merbahian,
chal

p/s: i think i first have to love this place first...

bukit again......

salam.....

has been a while, not exactly in the mood but just feel like putting it out..... in banting now, hell much difeerent compared to bukit merbah, oh here is bukit changgang..... surrounded by kelapa sawit, never had any outing sooo far, kinda lazy, hehs....

life is different, not that easy, in fact i do miss bukit merbah, what more kmpp.... drop the facilities part, no need to mention; it's hell different compared to bukit merbah.... no more ironing room, no more luggage room, pantry, and even towel racks.... lots more too mention but well there must be reasons, may be thousands why he is sending me here, probably to be mmore thankful with what i have..... and people said that bukit changgang is gonna change ur life n i wonder what kind of changes that m gonna face.... hehs

i miss dining halll damn much eventho panas nak mampus........ at least, it's clean, veryyyy clean.... credit to the pakcik n mak cik who mop the floor twice a day using DETTOL..... no wonder we can get A.... now i value ur hardwork n definitely ur pleasant smile.... eventho sometimes mak cik-mak cik do membebel when u ask for more food, hahaha..... somehow, i am thankful to have "dewan selera", yeah, delicious food is not ur main focus, we eat to live and not the other way right? hahaha

it's an islamic territory if i can say, hopefully i can be a better person n this will be the platform for me to prepare myself for the atrocious world.... hopefully... n even for agama, the ayat hafazan is tough, we have to finish kan juz 30, kinda good training especially for my memory.... ustaz is teaching me, can't really predict him so far but hopefully he can answers my questions like ustaz najmi did..... n the nakibahs are all fine, just that in here u need to seek for it, nothing comes easy in life after all, i know....

i think the biggest difference between bukit merbah and bukit changgang is the seniors..... man, i still can't accept that the seniors are fine, i know that i should be thankful but somehow it's scarying me.... we used to live with seniority n u know that u have to respect n u can't be arrogant, u need to be tough n they're not gonna pamper u, u can't merengek-rengek with them n lots more life that we had back in bukit merbah..... but here, it's 270 degrees change.... n i have to admit that i still takut with the seniors..... still takut to gelak when they make jokes n all bcoz i can still remember,"the jokes are ours".... aiyoo... need to live with it....

classes are fine...... being an engineering student, having the boys as the majority is something inevitable but the awkwardness is still there, i sometimes forget their presence and live as in i still in bukit merbah,... reality bites but i hope that i'll get use to it.... zack, bazy, ainzu n i even scared to hear them laughing out loud.... we usually leave the dining hall ASAp when we hear that, pathetic.... i know.... hahaha

IB is not that easy but i know one thing THINGS WILL NEVER BE EASIER I JUST NEED TO BE BETTER.... but the seniors keep on telling us that life here is hectic, but i guess they never had one before.... it's gonna be college life again.... working nad studying at weee hours n atc.... tiring, hectic yet meaningful n enjoyful life is gonna start soon, may be next week n i promise that i'll handle it finely, insha allah...

zack, bazy, dinie presence as merbahians will soehow give me strength to fight, to keep the college flag flying up high eventho it's kinda hard here... it's not just abput making a living, it's about making a life..... it's gonna be important, meaningful, tiring, hectic n challenging life but well i have strong reasons why i hvave to do it..... i guess the palestinians' tears is a good reason for us to study well, ..... n yeah, hopefull, Loughborough will be my next destination..... ameen

"if u think u can; u can, it u think u can't; u're right".....
"do u think that u'll enter paradise while such trial has not come to you as came to those who passed on before you? they were touched by poverty and hardship and were shaken until messenger and those who believed with him said,"whenis the help of allah?" unquestionably, the help of allah is NEAR".....

after all, what i'll be facing is tooo little but i know one thing, he is always there, for me, anytime, anywhere...... ily=)

it's char kuey teow =)

salam...

didn't plan to write this post, che' we was suppose to do so but daaa, she's too busy with study, kan che' we? hehs... never mind, it's memorable lah, just because of food, specifically char kuey teow... who knows that this is our first step when it comes to altruism right? may be it will be on islam one day, insha allah

i arrived kmpp aroud 4 n texted che' we on our plan to get the bes char kuey teow in town... she said everything will be as planned and we'll gather at cafe b around 5.... n as usual, i was the firs one to arrive there waiting until 5.10... hahaha.... n guess what, che' we was in brown. me in pink n both mell n meirul in black*wink* hahaha

mission: makan char kuey teow in sungai dua
date: 06062009
time: 1700
participants: mell(da char kuey teow addict), meirul(da penjaga keselamatan), che' we(da pengikut yang setia) n chalym(da penunjuk jalan)

1715- we scanned our matrix card, waited patiently for the bus to come... buses came but none is going to sunga dua... need to wait for some time

1745- a bus came, rangkaian setia, da uncle invited us to ride together with pasar malam people... i started to panic, sungai dua n pasar malam tak lalu jalan yang sama kan uncle?

1800- reached pasar malam, some of da kmpp students rode n ready to go back to kmpp, dane.... che' we comforted me, never mind chal, it's gonna be alrite... haha

1810- DANE!!! we reached kmpp, this will be a funny story then.... i estimated the time, it will be impossible for us to eat at the stall, urged che' we to ask the guard, will it be ok if we check in late? n da staid pak guard said" tak boleh, hagpa masuk lambat, pak cik tahan kad"... biting the bullet, redha, we just wanna eat, not more than that... talked to the uncle n bla... bla...

1815- the uncle stopped us at the police station..." u follow this jalan, dekat saja".... crossed the road n kept on telling them dekat je but i know the kejauhan actually.... god, it will take us 3km..... never mind, gave them hoping smile, dekat je.... hahaha

1830- mell n meirul started to bising,, how far is far chalym? hahaha... smiled again, dekat je... we can even see the bumbung... n mell still don't wanna give up, u go girl!!! char kuey teow
=)

1840- reached the stall, it is impossible to eat there, need to take away, never mind, we just need the char kuey teow... i had teh o ais, mell had her drink n same goes to che' we but meirul had the three,... gila...

1850- char kuey teow is done.... but how are we going back....dane..... che' we stopped a bus, city liner n we rode it... asked the pak cik where the bus is heading to? kuala nerang....alamak....
"pak cik lalu pongsu seribu tak?"
"lalu, lalu"
"kmpp?"
"oh tak, taak pa, sat gi hangpa turun kat simpang keling, tahab UTC"
"ok"
i tried to figure where on earth is simpang keling.... gosh.... it will be 5 km from kmpp.... n i talked to the pak cik, showed off my abilities to use loghat utara =p

1900- reached the simpang... n meirul started to bising.. mell suggested to balik to her kampung in simpang empat... i have no idea where it is... but meirul refused, i didn't bring my bio book n m gonna have bio quiz on monday... che' we just smiled... whatever it is, dah lambat... we need to bite the bullet... the three started to ask me how far will it be.?.... i smiled, dekat je... n showed them signboard.....sh*t... 5 km chalym? nak suruh kitorang jalan? yes, we have to, dekat je... hahahah

1910- walked n found a lot of bangkai(inhaling the bau) dane,... dah lah maghrib nanti jumpa hantu che' we=p..... mell n meirul were left at the back.... n suddenly... dane, we spotted a tempting red "bangkai".... demoralise gila, memalukan.... meirul looked n as expected, he became energetic, left mell hundreds km at the back.... luckily, abus came, we waved like crazy n thank god, the uncle stopped.... god is helping us, i know

1920- reached kmpp safely, alhamdulillah but....."tolong tinggal kad nah, hangpa lambat sangat"... speechless but we managed to gelak..... kinda used to it....haha

1930- walked to kedsis to get mineral water n fork n spoon... meirul was quiet... we started to rasa guilty... " sorry, aku tak biasa buat salah".... we were speechless again... boy, we are sorry.... eventho he said tak kisah but he actually kisah.... troublemaniac betul.... went to D'pongsu... heard azan, decided to perform our solat then only makan.... che' we jagakan the food dekat surau.....

2000- gathered at D'pongsu.... meirul opened the bungkusan hungrily n may be angrily =p..we were waiting for his respond, jangan marah dah... n i was hoping that he'll say sedap... if not m gonna live with guilt for months.... n after the first suap, he looked at us satisfiedly... nasib baik sedap, hilang bad mood aku..... lupa habis pasal matrix card..... thank god for helping us.....cuak n scary jugak when boy bad mood

2030- cucu came n ate his share, sedap... sedap.... released, thankful... all in one....talked n chat.... everyone said that we are crazy.... never mind, the best char kuey teow in town kot.... hahaha
2100- back to the room... performed solat isyak n etc....

2115- gathered at dataran.... need to see the guard for kunci bilik tutor.... n the guard asked meirul to leave matrix card., "tadi kan pak cik dah ambil?" hahahaha

2120- arrived bilik tutoran n studied like nothing happen.... hahahaha

hahaha, we pretended like kmpp tak de char kuey teow je, hahaha... definitely kmpp has that, kinda sedap pon but we did it just because it's free n it's da most delicious, hahaha...
met en tajuddin on tuesday's night... definitely kena blaber, but naaaa, not a big deal, kami makan je... hahaha

u see, how people can be so motivated just because of food... no wonder people in somalia n africal willing to walk for miles just for a loaf of bread.... but after all, it's worth..... this somehow taught us..... it's not that easy to search for something... who said that makan senag je? we have to walked for miles n need to serahkan our beloved matrix cads to stern en tajuddin... that's da price that we have to pay for enam bungkus char kuey teow.... =)

tho it just char kuey teow, chal hopes that u manage to see the unseen =)

it's not that easy :/

salam....

yes, da time comes like allah has promised, leaving kmpp is not that easy, so not.... m typing this in my room, layan my feelings and all. i somehow miss doing assignments, ramble with mell, nik, che' we, meirul, miemie n also meon. dunno, in a way, we complement each other... but people u just have lost one piece as for me, i am left alone. but i know when he decided it that way, he is replacing all of us with something better, who knows that KMB will fulfill my soul? he knows it well right?

honestly, i love to be in da education system very much eventho that usually gives me a lot of pressure but somehow that makes me feel closer to him, yes i know that u can get close to him anywhere, but daaa..... u usually remember him when u're in danger situation or a situation that u feel hard to handle... i often wonder when can i meet someone who shares the same soul, i mean mature, yes that's da precise word... somehow maturity is super duper important but somehow i love to layan the merengek-rengek(yes mell, nik... i don't mind) even when meirul stress with chem.... che' we u seldom look stressful but who knows inside right? haha

after a worthy month, i can conclude that god had given me more that i hope... i don't only get new friends but i become closer to merbahians which i seldom wish to do so... n i can't believe that i went to library every nite during my days back in kmpp... having great lecturers n amazing friends are among the greatest reasons for people to be thankful to, but i should be more for having the chance to have a companion who helped me to fulfill my soul, searching n improving my understanding on islam n etc... n for this religious thingy, special thanks to che' we for accompanying me to surau, i just can't imagine if i don't have u around since m sure u know that i hate to walk alone right? hehs.... not to forget my KP, muazzam for answering my questions n all, u helped me a lot, thanks... n also wanie, KISAS girl who also helped me.... and most important, thanx to nik, mell, che' we, meirul n H6P4 members for teaching me a lot of things either directly or indirectly, it's kinda hard to explain but i learn that actually we are different kan, yes i know everyone knows that but it's different when u understand it through ur heart... i learn to accept each other's weaknesses n one should never look down on others n most important we really need to complement each other, thanx allah for teaching me this.. it's among the greatest lessons in ur life ever...
to nik, che' we, mell n meirul... i really mean everything that i wrote tau? n to H6P4, i don't feel like writing it, let me make it into a post, that sounds better right, hehs?

n special dedication to mell, nik, che' we n meirul- till the day we meet again

Declan Galbraith : Till the day we meet again
Well here we are, just time for one more song,
Before another show is thru’
It's too bad the curtain has to fall, It's been a perfect day with you

So dance and let the music play, until we meet another day.

Chorus:
So don't say goodbye, there is no need to cry
The love we share will never end
Because you and me, we'll have this memory
One we can turn to now and then
Till the day we meet again

So raise your hands and sing along with me
I dedicate these words to you
It feels as though I've known you all my life, yet this magic is so new

So please remember when I say, good friends are never far away

Chorus.

No looking back with regret, cos today, I've found here with you something I'll never forget, won't forget

Chorus.
Till the day we meet again

even if we meet again pon, da situation will be hell different right? but i pray to him to give us da chance, insha allah eventho it's not in KMPP, we can't never repeat da time that we had right? leaving is not that easy, i prefer to be left because i usually prepared for that, but i wonder do people that i leave prepared for that.... but he knows it well right...

oh... i had kuliah zohor this afternoon n da chemistry lecturer said that girls are like pens.... it's an interesting question and may i have the time to elaborate further on it... insha allah

n i remember lukman's advise towards his son.... don't go to "keramaian" as it will remind u on dunyah but do visit funeral proceesions as it will remind u on akhirat... chal hopes that u mange to see the unseen :)

it's matriks life :)

salam....

this will be my final week in matriks, sedih? hell i am... honestly, i have ambivalence feelings towards my scholarship. happy? yes, because they will be sending me to uk if only i perform well in banting but sad because i have to live kmpp. after all, kmpp is great, hell it is....

it's nice to be here.... m a bit rush, but this post will be as gratitude to people who light my days here, sungguh anda pasti diingati, insha allah

che' we- my good friend, surprise how we can get close kan? amble down to surau together, share problems and all, walk to kuliah and isi air together, i'll miss those moment damn much, hope u'll keep on going to surau, n hope u'll find a new companion... be strong girl, i know u can... 4.0 is so possible for u, take care of ur health, be patience n i know u'll do great in ur exam, see u in aussie next 2 years, insha allah

nik- my housemate, will miss u alot girl, seriously... hope that u'll help them with english. i know u can do well in bio, no doubt but i hope u'll do great in calculation as well, no choice kan girl? i love to nag with u, eventho sometimes u vex me alot, but tak pernah kisah pon.... u go girl, see u in uk soon, insha allah... thanks a lot for helping me out with english, owe u that

mell- u serioulsy like my sister... don't give up girl, i'll miss ur merengek-rengek, see u in aussie jugak later.... i know u're actually good in calculation, love maths as much as u do to bio.... u'll make it, seriously.... just one year, don't pressure urself too much. get enough sleep tau? it's very important.... u can do it

meirul- wonder how we can close kan? u go dude... u need to adapt to the surrounding soon, don't wallow in self pity lama-lama. it won't give much help to u... i know that matriks is like a mistake to u but u have no other choices, u need to live with it... success is a constant movement, force urself a little bit... iknow u can do it, help my friends jugak, little by little... moga hidayah allah bersama anda.... see u in france one day, insha allah... u'll be a great army, insha allah but bere in ur mind that in order for u to change the world, u urself need to change first, understang ur self bebetul... u'l be a man soon, insha allah

H6P4- i'll make a special post about u guys , insha allah... may we succeed insha allah

thanx guys for everything. after all, to be inmatriks is so not a mistake n i thank allah for giving me this opportunity. bye kmpp.. thank u for teaching me lessons, may i'll be successful... ameen

reality :/

salam....

i shouldn't be in this mood, pathetic i know, but hopefully i manage to put my thoughts into words,... i feel bad these few days, don't know, so many things went wrong and i kinda "tak betul" probably because i can't talk to him, never mind, chal is strong enough, she has too, for islam at least.... insha allah
this post will be on my opinion, the experiences and lessons that i managed to learn even after 2 weeks registeration at kolej matrikulasi pulau pinang. hopefully i manage to put my opinions on PPSMI into words, chal is not good in expressing ideas :p
honestly, i came to KMPP with one main reason, i want to feel the experience of meeting malaysians, true malaysians, majority of malaysians, why? after 5 years in bukit merbah, followed by 2 weeks with exxonmobil comrades, i don't think that i met typical malaysians, i mean the average malaysians because most of merbahians are all clever and same goes to my exxonmobil comrades... so, this golden chance in KMPP, i am using it to get to know malaysians, average malaysians who come from average families, having average academic background, having average confidence to converse in english and etc... it's average, frankly...
honestly, i love the orientation week very much, it's so nice to be put in the islamic territory, yes, it's islamic people.... at first, i was shocked to see a lot of sisters( the facilitators) wearing tudung labuh and all... and same goes to the brothers, when we had solat jemaah, u can see them coming very early, performing the solat sunat and all... honestly... i am touched.. i had the experience of being a fac too and i admit that i failed to be a good one :p and i love my faci as well, sys fairus... congrats sys, u didi it well.... she kept on mentioning about couple and stuffs... honestly, i can't accept why people here keep on mentioning about coupling and all, but after thinking and discussing with my few new friends, i came out with this conclusion, it's the teenagers common problem that usually distract their studies, yes people.. distracting!!! kmpp also has this "say no to couple" campaign.... i love it... and about the facis they are all excellent students with 3.8 pointer and above and they are all future professionals, yes studying engineering, medicine, pharmacists and etc and yet they are all commited to da'wah... subhanallah.... m impressed and touched as well... i'll surely miss this islamic territory very much as i am sure enough that i won't be such territory anymore:/ m still thankful because at least he still give me chance to feel the nikmat to be in such territory, it's nice people, very nice :)

this will be about PPSMI... after two weeks with my new exciting comrades, i finally realise one thing, PPSMI should be demolished, yes people!!! we learned science and maths in english for 5 years and theoritically, we suppose to understand the 2 subjects very well and same goes to our english... but after one week having the kuliah and tutorial with malaysians, i finally realise that PPSMI seem not to reach the target.... my classmates prefer to ask lecturers in bahasa and even i have to explain to them in bahasa... and i pity them for spending time to translate the lessons into bahasa... what a waste.... and these average malaysians seem to refuse to converse in english during the lectures and tutors and even in english class... i pity u guys, we are all victims... i even see that some lecturers have the difficulty to put their ideas in english, at the end, they say it in bahasa and the students can understand it well, very well... and reality bites, yes it is.... PPSMI actually benefits people in SBP, MRSM and other ellite schools and students from ellite families... but sadly, majority malaysians are just the average... at the end, yang dikejar tak dapat yang dikendong berciciran... and therefore mr PM, please abolish PPSMI, i pity my friends like hell... understand us....

i am still waiting for letters from JPA, please tell me where should i go.... i can't stand it anymore, learning bio and all... i had enough... no more bio please... but i thank allah for giving and meeting me with very nice friends, they are my strength to bertahan with the obstacles, hopefully i'll be strong... ameen...... i feel bad for jilting petronas, dunno... m suppose to attend btn tomorrow and fly next month. but reality bites... language is tough and ma can't afford to let me go that fast, i kinda understand but i feel bad, very bad.... after all, petronas scholarship is what i wanted since i was 12... but i hope i'll be ok after i know where jpa is going to put me, and please let me go to uk.... ameen

i feel bad, very bad and therefore i ask allah for the strength, chal is strong, yes strong enough to face the obstacles and therefore allah is testing her, her iman... but alhamdulillah, until now chal manage to see the unseen, behind the obstacles... yes, people.... i pray that u manage to see the unseen too....

i thank everyone who read my posts, i hope that u manage to see the unseen and may u get the benefits from my crap... ameen

p/s: albaqarah 216, let's ponder :)

he's there ;)

salam...

yes, he's there to listen to ur prayers and not only listen but also fulfill, thank u allah :) and thinking back about all his nikmat towards me, i feel so small yet thankful, what he gave and is way too much compared to what i gave him, don't make the comparison... u can't never reach that stage and indeed allah doesn't need our prayers actually, our zakat and all... yeah, i remember this saying from one ustaz back in college, rasakan solat itu satu nikmat dari allah sebagai tanda kita bersyukur, u know that u'll say thank you when people give u something; solat is one way to say thank u to allah... that's why we shouldn't take it as a burden, it's soo not.. we perform solat with big heart, to thank him for everything, nose, ears, air and all that we don't have to pay, yes it's free people!!!! i just can't imagine if i have to pay for the air, it's A LOT!!! and i remember this story of a man who asked allah to enter jannah based on his ibadat only, without rahmah(kasih sayang) including syafaat and all... oh, he did a lot of ibadah of course!!! and guess what happened? he didn't even qualify to be in da jannah, yes, without da syafaat, and therefore, there's no use to brag on our ibadat, there's no use to tell people on our solat sunat and all, no need!!!

i got offer from petronas, engineering in france, i was speechless, france had never been in my hope, i wonder why they still give me the offer eventho they know that i didn't have basic, so i may be neglecting the offer...

for exxonmobil, i am still waiting for the confirmation from texas a&m university, fatiah got the confirmation already but i am not sure about syed and syah.... cleo is going for his path, air force while amir is definitely into law... after considering and thinking on a lot of things, i wll jilt exxon, yes people... jilt.... that's the best choice, i'll remember G6 till infinity, insha allah

and alhamdulillah, i got jpa but i still wonder where are they going to campak me, yes JPA is the best choice... it will be easier for me to do my master right after i finish the degree and i can get into my favourite field, aerospace... hopefully.... he's there and i just have to ask for it

people, i am not kufur nikmat and all, rejecting the offer sesuka hati but i have reasons, i am still sane, insha allah :) i have to think a lot, yes a lot!!!

i went for this kuliyah maghrib last nite, wonder why da jews are too successful? it's simple, they are following da quran even just some of the verses, including da good food.... "halalan toyyiba"

p/s: islam akan pasti gemilang dan moga kita antara yang menggemilangkannya... ameen

do i need to be a cikgu???

salam...

wanted to write about this long time ago but chal is an idle, hehs.... this will be my special post about my interview with moe in april, if tak silap, long time ago.... honestly, i dislike the interview, bored tahap giga, asking me about co curricular activities, both in malay and english..... talking about the interview, i love mine with exxon very much.... but my kebosanan terubat when we had the interview in BM, in smaller group, they were 3 of us with one panel.. oh, i was the only girl there, hoping to be cikgu fizik, hahaha.... at first, it was on aktiviti kokurikulum lah until suddenly this man asked me a question, it managed to jagakan my mata yang dah start mengantuk, :p



en x: betul ke awak nak jadi cikgu? awak budak TKC kan?

chal: ye, en... saya memang nak jadi cikgu.......(bohong sunat, at first!!!)

en x: awak tak malu ke nak jadi cikgu? sepanjang saya jadi cikgu sampai saya jadi pensyarah,

saya tak pernah jumpa budak TKC jadi cikgu, tak malu ke? bukan budak TKC hebat-hebat ke? mana layak jadi cikgu?

i was like, apahal kau but i smiled lah, senyum plastik, nak kena kau, nanti aku smash kang :p



en x: saya budak VI, tahu VI?

chal: ohhh?

en x: semua orang tahu kan? VI hebat, lepas jadi cikgu 10 tahun tak jumpa kawan, malu jadi cikgu, orang lain kerja hebat-hebat, saya cikgu jer, awak nak malu macam saya? kalau awak jadi cikgu, apa yang awak nak cakap pasal TKC? nanti senior awak cakap apa?



i was baran lah but well soon after that i like him, seriously..... and here goes my answer, not exactly lah....



saya merasakan profession perguruan perlu menjadi pilihan semua orang, saya tidak pernah memandang sebagai profession kelas kedua kerana tugas ini perlu dipikul oleh mereka yang benar-benar ikhlas untuk mendidik, saya sebenarnya mengimpikan dan akan berusaha untuk menjadi guru-guru seperti kalangan warga MPSI yang bukan sahaja mendidik malahan meniup semangat nasionalisme dan saya merasakan profession perguruan perlu dipandang tinggi seperti mana yang berlaku dalam tamadun china dan sebagainya. saya tidak pernah membataskan pekerjaan saya sebagai guru semata-mata, saya sangat mengagumi allahyarham dato' razali ismail, beliau berjaya meniup kembali semangat rakan-rakan saya yang telah luntur dalam kunjungan beliau ke sekolah kami..... bla...bla...

n the session went smoothly, i love to talk to such people, u're a man en x, i admire ur spirit because u had somehow manage to goyahkan my stand, manage to hasut me to be a cikgu but well, i'll be an enginner, i become an engineer for reasons, my dreams and my hopes....



but hopefully i get JPA scholarship... ameen, i can't never be a cikgu, the tugas, amanah dan tanggungjawab yang dipikul terlampau berat, if i am a teacher, i will have the pressure to procuce students like me, seriously...... eventho i won't limit myself as cikgu semata-mata, but the pressure to produce good students is there, not just good in academics but also behaviour and spiritual, i want students to have very high self-esteem, full of epathy, and yet clever. but it's not easy and therefore i pray for jpa. but i can't deny that i'll be a lecturer in future. it's so nice to have prof in front of ur name, hehs...... i respect teachers who manage to educate and not only teach, thank you to my teachers:

add maths
staid en ahmad for helping me out, and sabar with my pranks, sorry to fool u
altruism pn azizah- i'll remember ur hardwork and love, may allah alleviate ur way
special thanks to my tuition teacher that always full with adrenaline, cikgu latiff, u're the true teacher, thnax for inspiring, i'll remember ur calculus book n hope i can master it one day

physics
genius en anuar ahmad for feeding my curious mind, i love ur coolness to rebut my hujah, ur simplicity . sorry to fool u especially with "selebet" and all
caring pn nafisah- sorry for everything, "awak boleh buat cuma ketatkan screw otak awak jer", haha... i love the words cikgu

chemistry
pn hawa- i am sooooo sorry for sleeping in da class but i love to hear ur stories about ur anak-anak, abg safwan and kak sarah, eventho it just a trick untuk tak belajar, "berjaya jugak awak, dulu nakal nih", hahaha... thank u cikgu for halalkan those ilmu eventho i slept in da class
pn suhaila- i luv u cikgu, thank u very much for helping me to understand chem eventho it was kinda late, i started to enjoy chem bila blajar dengan cikgu, u make it simple :p

biology
enthusiam pn raudhah- thank u for inspiring, i love u eventho takut dengan ur class.... hope u'll be successful
mr tan- i love u sir, i love ur altruism, thank u for all ur videos, u helped me a lot with bio, i even hoped to be a doc once... suke gile ur class, i enjoyed it very much... n i admire ur knowledge and curiosity, u never fail to answer my quest... love yah

maths
pn suhaila- sorry for "cikgu, kita take 5" hahaha... and it's not only 5, often until 30... haha but at least tak seteruk nisa who slept all da way during da class
mr lau- sorry for sleeping eventho i promised not to sleep after u caught me sleeping while u were teaching matrices in class, couldn't avoid lah sir, i am sure u are always in good health, sir kan minum oat everyday? hehs

bahasa melayu
pn azizah- thank u cikgu, selalu ingat ur story pasal ur arwah anak, u're sooo motherly, thank u for always understand our situation and always tak tak kecil hati with us, love u

english
pn nora- i love u pn nora, seriously!!! eventho it took us 3 weeks to finish sonnet 18 and 2 weeks to finish si tenggang, i still remember all da lessons and honestly, i remember it untill now
miss chelvee- u educated us n not tought, but i enjoyed ur class, eventho we spent 3 weeks listening to ur reading on alexander the great and th pearl, i still remember ur tears, sorry for escaping ur class, postponed yet tak pernah hantar ur homework but one thing for sure, u taught me about life, yes, life!!!!

sejarah
en salleh- thank u for all ur stories on politics and all ur doa that usually full of blasphomy and euphemism."mangkuk, hamlau" n all, u name it... hahaha... thank u for being soooo understanding
pn yusma- 4 years with her, thank u, luv yah... still couldn't forget during one class when only 3 of us still alive, yang lain semua dah drift to heaven:p

agama
us najmi- luv u ustaz, thank u for ur candid answer on all my questions, ustaz memang cool habis.... sorry for always "lencongkan" ustaz, hahaha... " nanti lepas awak baca buku apa-apa, pastikan awak tanya ustaz pasal kepastian, saya takut dengan awak nih"... hahaha insha allah ustaz... hopefully i can be good

they are my teachers, banyak lagi of course but they are the people who coloured my senior life in merbah, love u guys.... moga dunia dan akhirat menjadi mudah bagi kita, ameen

1) i had interview with petronas but i will opt it if i get
2) i will jilt exxon soon, chal is still sane, :p
3) i got interview with bank negara but i am not going, chal wanna be an engineer and not ecconomist
4) i am going to kolej matrikulasi pulau pinang for a while, hopefully... my dream since i was 12
5) i got diploma kejuruteraan aeronautik in utm but sadly, i can't.....

all in all, i thank allah for everything, thank u for all the prayers... don't scold chal because chal usuall do something logically :p
advance happy teachers' day to all tecahers, sayang anda

p/s: chal will be a pelarian soon, yes... lari dari realiti :p