Showing posts with label G6. Show all posts
Showing posts with label G6. Show all posts

Saturday, 9 May 2009

he's there ;)

salam...

yes, he's there to listen to ur prayers and not only listen but also fulfill, thank u allah :) and thinking back about all his nikmat towards me, i feel so small yet thankful, what he gave and is way too much compared to what i gave him, don't make the comparison... u can't never reach that stage and indeed allah doesn't need our prayers actually, our zakat and all... yeah, i remember this saying from one ustaz back in college, rasakan solat itu satu nikmat dari allah sebagai tanda kita bersyukur, u know that u'll say thank you when people give u something; solat is one way to say thank u to allah... that's why we shouldn't take it as a burden, it's soo not.. we perform solat with big heart, to thank him for everything, nose, ears, air and all that we don't have to pay, yes it's free people!!!! i just can't imagine if i have to pay for the air, it's A LOT!!! and i remember this story of a man who asked allah to enter jannah based on his ibadat only, without rahmah(kasih sayang) including syafaat and all... oh, he did a lot of ibadah of course!!! and guess what happened? he didn't even qualify to be in da jannah, yes, without da syafaat, and therefore, there's no use to brag on our ibadat, there's no use to tell people on our solat sunat and all, no need!!!

i got offer from petronas, engineering in france, i was speechless, france had never been in my hope, i wonder why they still give me the offer eventho they know that i didn't have basic, so i may be neglecting the offer...

for exxonmobil, i am still waiting for the confirmation from texas a&m university, fatiah got the confirmation already but i am not sure about syed and syah.... cleo is going for his path, air force while amir is definitely into law... after considering and thinking on a lot of things, i wll jilt exxon, yes people... jilt.... that's the best choice, i'll remember G6 till infinity, insha allah

and alhamdulillah, i got jpa but i still wonder where are they going to campak me, yes JPA is the best choice... it will be easier for me to do my master right after i finish the degree and i can get into my favourite field, aerospace... hopefully.... he's there and i just have to ask for it

people, i am not kufur nikmat and all, rejecting the offer sesuka hati but i have reasons, i am still sane, insha allah :) i have to think a lot, yes a lot!!!

i went for this kuliyah maghrib last nite, wonder why da jews are too successful? it's simple, they are following da quran even just some of the verses, including da good food.... "halalan toyyiba"

p/s: islam akan pasti gemilang dan moga kita antara yang menggemilangkannya... ameen

Thursday, 5 March 2009

dizzy...

salam..

so many things that need to be shared but i am sad because i can't make it in BM, adoi... i just can't pull it out, so just a draft, never mind, i hope i can write a post in BM, it's da real BM, 100% BM... insha allah

nuryn and najie wrote(or may be mail) utusan a letter regarding the PPSMI thingy, obviously they are into it lah, support of course but i am sorry, i am proudly said that i oppose PPSMI, don't worry i am not jumud or mentaklik buta, i have my own stand and i did write an article about this thingy just that i malas to share it with others but if one day i think i have too, then I'll do it. as for me, i am learning from the past, from Turkey, from tulisan jawi and all. there are so many things that u can learn, i am not saying that those who are agree with PPSMI, do not read and learn from the past, NO!!! just that from what i read, none of the articles manage to even "goyahkan" my stand, i am sorry... but congrats to najie and nuryn for having the guts to mail utusan, even i myself are scared of posting and mailing something...

result is gonna be out on 12(people said)... it means it has been almost 4 months i am indulging myself, living in the comfort zone and all. i keep on asking what have i done for the past months, seriously, i still have 8 juz to khatam, 22 juz to understand, i didn't master my tajwid yet, didn't finish the misconceptions about Islam, out of the tempurung, the future of freedom and the doctrine of Muhammad in the bible, god!!!! banyaknya, i have to complete all these before the result is out, that's my target, impossible? i know i can do it, but i never regret with it? for all these holiday, i praise and thank Allah for giving me this time, when i used to "mantapkan" my faith on Islam, even though i can't came out with hadis and ayat Quran when talking about an issue but at least now i can bersyahadah dengan yakin bahawa sememangnya muhammad itu pesuruh Allah dan hanya Allah tuhan yang aku sembah, why is it important for me? because as I've mentioned in my previous posts, i don't wanna be a muslim because i was born as a muslim, if we can see how the sahabats' love towards Rasulullah, it is amazing, everyone knows about Abu Bakar and his story during their hijrah to Madinah, i am touched with his love, they are men but how can he loves Rasulullah and they are not gay? it's simply because of the love, love because of Allah, it's ukhuwahfillah, subhanaalh, i admire that. and if we still remember sumayyah's story, bilal and all, do u touched with their story? how they are willing to live in pain just because of Allah, this is what i am searching for, it's the believe, which is hard, very hard to get. if before this i am wearing tudung because i have to wear tudung, now alhamdulilah, i am wearing tudung because i want to wear, i believe in Allah and nobody can argue on it. i believe that most of the problems happen on this earth because of the believe, when the obstacles come and knock the door, how many of u s believe that it comes from Allah and Allah knows that u can handle it? how many of us know taht the answers for this are stated in Quran? how many of us prefer to look at the Quran to release our stress and find the strength? Allah keep on saying in the Quran, Allah tidak akan membebani manusia melebihi kesanggupannya,( i forget to count how many of them), yeap this is the sentence that we should remember, this is what i wish i can remember when i feel like giving up in my uni life, i always wonder what makes muhammad al-fateh strong? what makes him different and what makes him successful to conquer Constantinapole? even though he failed for the first time but he keep on trying and preparing for the best and at the end, alhamdulillah, i can't imagine how much his believe towards Allah, this is what i gained so far and i keep on searching and therefore i never had the regret for spending my time like this, even though i don't have the money( i am not working, doh!), even though i didn't have my driving licence yet(for car), and even though i failed to read all the facts on war and revolutions, i am not regret at all, at least now i am proud to be a muslim, thank you Allah for giving me this kesedaran, i believe that this is one kind of "hidayah" too... at least if i manage to live in next 50 years and my grandson ask me what did i do after my SPM, i can tell him all these without shame at all, yes, i am proud to be a muslim. i am telling you that it is amazing to read the translation, to read the experience how people get hidayah and all, it's amazing!!! i thank allah for all these things as i know that i will never have it again, thank you to DIA yang memahami dan dia yang tidak pernah menghampakan, i love Islam even though not as much as Rasulullah did, as i i know that it's growing,.... thank you to for meeting me with the right people, i don't know how did they know me but seriously, i am touched reading all the mails and messages even in the facebook, so who said that facebook is lagha? u can choose people!!!

i don't know what is happening with politics and all, lazy to think of it, i believe that this has something to do with the believe too, wake up people!!! i wonder why people is crazy about wealth and i just can't believe that wealth, money and women can actually drift u away from ur fitrah, away from Allah, think about it people, something need to be done to stop all this manipulations, bribe and all...

i read this blog, a 23 years old mother-to-be, ex-KISAS, i was touched when she wrote that around two months before her SPM, her ustazah called her and told her somebody wanted to marry her. don't get the wrong picture, i am impressed with the boy, 23 years old too, a very matured boy i believe, i never think of it before SPM, instead of coupling like others, he choose to marry this girl and the decision came before SPM, how ready and strong he is to hold the responsibility, this is what people that have the strong believe in Allah will do, but they got married when they were 21 lah, but i want u to understand his situation and his believe in Allah, seriously, even though i oppose early marriage especially if u're still students but i give exception for this case, i respect u brother, subhanaalah, thanx for giving me values and lessons to learn, ily because of Allah

i wish that i can write a post about kawan, sahabat and etc, sorry zafer, instead of mailing u, it's better to write apost je, senang, laterlah if i have the mood...

i seriously putting my future on Allah, something is wrong with the admission, adoiii, but never mind Allah knows better, if i can't go for it, i'll never forget G6, u're among the amazing friends that i have, too precious to describe, even though we met only for a few days, but i love the bonds that we have, may all of us will be successful... ameen

dym is having her exam and interview in this week, ganbatte ne, i pray for the best to u, if u can't make it, just believe that allah knows that japan is not good for u, he knows it better...

sorry to admit but i don't feel like meeting my friends, raihan is right, i just wanna meet a few. sorry guys, i wonder why i don't really miss u guys, same goes to the debate club, i am sorry, i believe that u don't need my help, i think my college life is a mistake, don't know, seriously, it's a mistake but i know he knows it better, it's a mistake but i learn a lot lessons that i can't never get if i don't go there, ukhuwah fillah...

lots of thing that need to be ponder in order for us TO SEE THE UNSEEN, if u're muslims, i urge u to read the translation and u'll get to see the unseen and if u're not muslims, try to get the translation and i believe that u can see the unseen,

may ALLAH bless all of us.... ameen

p/s: ignore all the errors even for my previous posts, malas to correct, sorry

Sunday, 22 February 2009

i am free, at last!!!!

salam...

done with my TOEFL today, now only i feel totally release, da feeling that i never had even after i finished my SPM....alhamdulillah...

it started at 10 but i reached kdu, penang(the place where we did da exam) at 8.45.. before 8.20 cleo texted me that he is there, awal gell.... and when i reached there, i saw amir is there tooo. so, after hi!!! and what are u doing now session, we talked a lot until syed arrived with his new airdo which really remind me dekat abg habib!!! alamak, cukuplah seorang abg habib in my life but i think i have the second one, sacrastic in his own way but thank god u are "cute", so i just think that syed is actually like kids yang suka cari pasal, nasib you lah syed hahaha.... btw, he's a drummer from VI and he's going to Italy for marching band competition in july!!! congrats lah, u memang ada muka drummer pon..... so syed asked me about my certificates, i sent the original to tamu... so, again, telan yo lah ur gelak tu and he told me that he has two aunts from tkc, and guess what his aunts said? budak tkc memang macam tu, i was like? what? but i understandlah, may be da kerek thingy and jaga pride kot but i think i talk to them jugak, i was not quiet just that i don't talk toooo much and we have just met, i mean a few months je kot, lepak lah!!!! but the good side about him, no offense girl!!! i was smiling and said, never mind, we are used to it....hahahaha

we talked a lot of thing and cleo said that tamu actually has this flying club where u can actually get ur Private Pilot Licence(PPL) there and u'll learn da basic things about flight and it is yours, i mean u can fly the air craft on ur own anytime that u like an u just have to pay 56 US dollars per month, it's another wow!!! i'll joint it for sure, insha allah!!! then we talked about Berkeley and all, and cleo told us that we can stay overnight at his grandma's house in California, which will cause 10 days trip from Texas, i'll enjoy it...insha allah...

we met this guy from JOrdan, currently doing Ph.D computer scienece at USM, his English is fine eventhough there are a few questions that he didn't understand and we need to ask again. i forgot his name in Arabic but the meaning is thunder. and the good thing about this guy is he has two wives and he told us about it.!!! a candid muslim guy. and he said that malaysia is an islamic country and he feels safer and he thinks that his kids will grow up islamically, but he complained about the goverments employee, da time and money that he wasted because of this poor "relax"attitude.. he advised us to work harder in States as it is a country where u neeed to be hardworking and not like Malaysia where u can relax and all, shame on Malaysians and we apologized him for that. it is nice to talk to him lah. fatiah came in alone by flight, i wonder how she survived, congrats dear, i can't do it yet!!! Shah is fine, still in his weird attitude, da guy yang Syed selalu laugh to, don't know, may be he's like Nisa kot, but he's nice and he's doing his business, selling e-bay products online and he's making a lot of profit, more than RM1000 per month, another wow!!! everyone seems to have da x- factor but i am still clueless about my x-factor, hahaha

sue's article is out but i couldn't buy The Star, sorry sue!!! ur message came in late, i was doing my Toefl at that time, hahaha.. after went through the courses and exams, i think Sue actually desrves that scholarship, u suppose to be the one that get the sponsor, not me.. allah knows better, i guess but being in that circle makes me think, eventhough they are different from me, but the variety that leads to the chaos, it does!!! don't know when are we , G6 are going to meet again, may be in April when we will work with exxon, hopefully we can go offshore together, that will be surely memorable, hahaha... to u sue!!! saya bangga dengan anda, u're poetic my dear, keep it up!!! u are much more better than Dina Zaman, better ideas and better argumentations, write a book and i'll surely read it, u have better understanding on Islam rather than she does, i really mean it...i tak sempat baca does my head look big in this?, tak pe, later on i'll cari dekat bookstore, hopefully still ada...ameen

TOEFL is fine, da vocab especially. it's like english test in college, ok i guess!!! it's over and i don't care about it, i just have to pray for the seat in TAMU, hopefully, i can go by this september, sorry ma and abah, i have to go and i will not let it down, i have my own reasons and i believe that ALLAH understands me very well... whoever that is looking for the ideas on how does TOEFL looks like, u can ask me for the details, malas nak elaborate, hahaha

i received a parcel from Alexandria, it's da second parcel.... but this it's da Quran's translation, which i've been looking for a long time, it's in english yah!!! i am preparing myself for that and i am learning all da hukums and rukuns in english, yelah nanti mat salleh tanya why can't u apostate in Islam, nanti i was wondering what is apostate, it's embarassing and plus it will be good if i can come out with some of the verses in Quran, moga ada yang dapat hidayah...ameen., terima kasih buat dia yang memahami, hanya kesyukuran yang dapat dipanjatkan, dia yang tak pernah mengecewakan, dia yang sentiasa mengetahui. the first parcel ada books on misconceptions about islam and some more, very interesting. since i am totally free right now, i am using this time to understand fully, it is difficult to translate the rukun iman, islam, wudhuk and all in English but i am doing fine with it kot, hahaha...

this is my first post yang i lepak sikit and elaborate everything in details, u have da reason right for my inscrutable, vapid posts, i apologize u for that... and before i end, let's ponder this:
by time,
indeed, mankind is in loss,
except for those who have believed and done righteous deeds and advised each other to truth and advised each other to patience
(Al-Asr, 103)