bukit again......

salam.....

has been a while, not exactly in the mood but just feel like putting it out..... in banting now, hell much difeerent compared to bukit merbah, oh here is bukit changgang..... surrounded by kelapa sawit, never had any outing sooo far, kinda lazy, hehs....

life is different, not that easy, in fact i do miss bukit merbah, what more kmpp.... drop the facilities part, no need to mention; it's hell different compared to bukit merbah.... no more ironing room, no more luggage room, pantry, and even towel racks.... lots more too mention but well there must be reasons, may be thousands why he is sending me here, probably to be mmore thankful with what i have..... and people said that bukit changgang is gonna change ur life n i wonder what kind of changes that m gonna face.... hehs

i miss dining halll damn much eventho panas nak mampus........ at least, it's clean, veryyyy clean.... credit to the pakcik n mak cik who mop the floor twice a day using DETTOL..... no wonder we can get A.... now i value ur hardwork n definitely ur pleasant smile.... eventho sometimes mak cik-mak cik do membebel when u ask for more food, hahaha..... somehow, i am thankful to have "dewan selera", yeah, delicious food is not ur main focus, we eat to live and not the other way right? hahaha

it's an islamic territory if i can say, hopefully i can be a better person n this will be the platform for me to prepare myself for the atrocious world.... hopefully... n even for agama, the ayat hafazan is tough, we have to finish kan juz 30, kinda good training especially for my memory.... ustaz is teaching me, can't really predict him so far but hopefully he can answers my questions like ustaz najmi did..... n the nakibahs are all fine, just that in here u need to seek for it, nothing comes easy in life after all, i know....

i think the biggest difference between bukit merbah and bukit changgang is the seniors..... man, i still can't accept that the seniors are fine, i know that i should be thankful but somehow it's scarying me.... we used to live with seniority n u know that u have to respect n u can't be arrogant, u need to be tough n they're not gonna pamper u, u can't merengek-rengek with them n lots more life that we had back in bukit merbah..... but here, it's 270 degrees change.... n i have to admit that i still takut with the seniors..... still takut to gelak when they make jokes n all bcoz i can still remember,"the jokes are ours".... aiyoo... need to live with it....

classes are fine...... being an engineering student, having the boys as the majority is something inevitable but the awkwardness is still there, i sometimes forget their presence and live as in i still in bukit merbah,... reality bites but i hope that i'll get use to it.... zack, bazy, ainzu n i even scared to hear them laughing out loud.... we usually leave the dining hall ASAp when we hear that, pathetic.... i know.... hahaha

IB is not that easy but i know one thing THINGS WILL NEVER BE EASIER I JUST NEED TO BE BETTER.... but the seniors keep on telling us that life here is hectic, but i guess they never had one before.... it's gonna be college life again.... working nad studying at weee hours n atc.... tiring, hectic yet meaningful n enjoyful life is gonna start soon, may be next week n i promise that i'll handle it finely, insha allah...

zack, bazy, dinie presence as merbahians will soehow give me strength to fight, to keep the college flag flying up high eventho it's kinda hard here... it's not just abput making a living, it's about making a life..... it's gonna be important, meaningful, tiring, hectic n challenging life but well i have strong reasons why i hvave to do it..... i guess the palestinians' tears is a good reason for us to study well, ..... n yeah, hopefull, Loughborough will be my next destination..... ameen

"if u think u can; u can, it u think u can't; u're right".....
"do u think that u'll enter paradise while such trial has not come to you as came to those who passed on before you? they were touched by poverty and hardship and were shaken until messenger and those who believed with him said,"whenis the help of allah?" unquestionably, the help of allah is NEAR".....

after all, what i'll be facing is tooo little but i know one thing, he is always there, for me, anytime, anywhere...... ily=)