it's INTERNAL BRAVERY

salam....

m borrowing choki's term for IB, hahaha... i found it precise, seriously.... for now, i thank allah because i am still capable of breathing and posting new post, lucky me....

classes are fine, homework, lab reports n etc... maths is interesting, physics is stunnning, chem is challenging, engish is fine, malay is enjoyable and econs is definitely fun... so far so good... i somehow thank college for creating such a hectic environment as this has helped me a lot so far to survive, well... nothing comes easy in life right?

some started to say that IB is tough and the seniors will definitely agree with it, and they keep on reminding us on that, mind you.... but i believe that we actually handle the situation, it's ourself who choose and decide either that particular condition is tough or not... i believe that tough, hard and busy is abstract, i in fact ask the seniors once, how busy is busy? and how hard is hard? and he said that it's tough because u have lots of work that need to be done at one time and it's busy also because of it... and i asked him back do u still have time to leisure urself and have fun with ur friends? and he said yes.... daa, see it's his mindset and it's his believe, that makes it tough and hectic....

well, this is definitely bragging but hopefully this will be a reminder to me and others and a wake up call to me and others who still wallowup in self pity... when god put us in some situation, he knows that we are actually capable of handling it, he who created us definitely knows us better, and we have mind that can be programmed, he who wakes up with a smile and start his day enthusiastically will surely believe that his day is great eventhough it is not, and he who wakes up in selfpity will see his happy day as a mournful day.... when people said that they are sad, i often wonder, how sad is sad actually? and when people said that they are busy, i'll ask the same question and same goes to hard.... people said that maths is hard, hell it is, but after all, we can't never change maths, it's gonna be tough and hard if we still keep on believing that it is but it'll be easier if we believe that it is not, and yeah, THINGS WILL NEVER BE EASIER, YOU JUST NEED TO BE BETTER, u can't change the fate but u can change urself... and the end of the day, in order for us to survive, we have to change our mindset, our believes and and work....

i usually imagine myself struggling in the ocean, the shore is far at the back and there's an island at the front but daaaa, definitely it's far as well.... without life jacket, in otder for me to survive and alive, i have to keep on swimming eventhough i am tired, i have to keep on swimming eventhough i am sleepy and most important, i can't never give up or not, i'll get drowned... and in order for me to ensure that i can reach the siland, i needstrategy, i can't push myself till the limit at firs because later i'll lost my energy and i can't move too slow because there might be sharks waiting for me at seabed, who knows right? at the end of the day, the only way to ensure that u can get to the island is to keep on swimming, by all means...

keep on swimming people =)
p/s: chal was just reminding herself, don't get her wrong, she's not cocky =p