searching for da strength....

salam....
seriously, i really mean it.... for those that know me well, i'll never say that to others but now i have too as this is my territory, da real me... i am damn cuak with SAT especially withda essay, seriously, it's freaking hard n i just don't know how to express my thoughts n even worst i am too dangkal bout general knowledge...it's like debate, u need to give prooves from three different areas like current issues, novels n history....it's difficultn m scared n i really mena it...bout maths n critical reading, i don't worry too uch bcoz i just to improve my vocab but when it comes to writing.....aaaaaaa, i wanna be an engineer, why should u care about my writing....as long as i can talk, it will be alright kan? naaaaaaa, seriously, at this time, i wish that i am in college because that's da only place that i can concentrate.....my home is sooo tranquil n it makes feel like sleeping,, GOD!!! i wanna be in college....daa...this is the time when i really down, not motivated at all but i am still moving, hoping for his strength, i know, i have no other choices, i just have to work......i am working n will keep on working n praying n i believe that allah is there to help me....ya allah, aku pohon kekuatan darimu agar aku dapat memperoleh sekurang-kurangnya 2000 markah dalam SAT dan moga permohonanku ke uni of texas a&m untuk fall 2009 diterima kerana sesungguhnya hanya engkau yang mengetahui kenapa kejuruteraan, kenapa amerika dan kenapa secepat mungkin......ameen......

please pray for my strength...

aishah,
things will never be easier n u just need to be better kan???