dream, hidayah..

salam..

had a very nice dream last night, it's hard to describe, but i feel like being slapped, it's a wake-up call for me, if before this i read how dream can actually change people, now i started to belive it, hopefully.. one thing for sure, life after this will be totally different from what i've planned, may be i was too small to understand the real atrocious world, yes it is.. depress? yes, i am but i am telling myself to accept it full heartedly, things will never be easier, i just need to be better... there are so many ways to be better, to contribute to the ummah especially with my limited hands and the capacity that i have as a woman, i know he knows it better.. andai itu takdirnya, aku terima ketentuanmu, ya -Rabb., walaupun sukar, ampunkan aku dan elakkan aku daripada menjadi kuffar, i remember this book i read long time ago, sesiapa yang banyak berangan ialah kawan syaitan, i was telling myselg that i actually imagining not dreaming but i now i realised that i actually manupulate Islam to be in my way, ampunkan aku ya allah, aku khilaf... so many things need to be pondered,

yeah, things will never be easier, u just need to be better, thank you for waking me up Ya -Rabb!!!