result, future

Vegetoz-Kuatkan AkuOh Tuhan
kuatkan aku
Untuk lalui jalan hidup ini
Yang ku inginkan selalu
ada dalam ridhoMu
Berikanlah petunjukMu
Agar diriku tak tersesat
Untuk menuju surga
yang telah Kau janjikan
Ampunkan diriku
jikaSelama ini
hanyalah berbuat dosa
Tak sanggup diriku
bilaDi akhir hidupku
menanggung siksaMu
Aku hambamu yang lemah,
tak sempurna
Berlutut sujud dihadapMu

salam...

it's march, just can't believe, so many things that need to be done and da resultwill be out on 12, so many things that need to be read, 10 more juz' to read and 24 more to understand, i haven't finish the future of freedom and out of the tempurung, same goes to miscanception about islam and the doctrine of muhammad in bible, adoiiii!!! don't know what have i done but seriously i don't have any regret for spending my precious time like what i am doing, at least i understand life better and yeah, it helps me preparing myself for the atrocious world, don't know....

it's hard talikng about future, it's even harder to talk about ur capabilities, it's hard.. i know and i believe that i can survive, i mean dicampakkan ke any path, just that the different is either i have to struggle or not lah, but then i believe that i am somebody on this earth and i believe that allah created me for reasons and allah believes that i can do something to make this world a better place, that's what i believe, and because of that i am preparing myself to except for the worst, yeah. i can't do engineering(aeronautics specifically), i can't go overseas(study there lah, daa), and i can't go to matriks, ya allaah, god forbid but sometimes itulah pengajaran terbesar in you seperti mana penjara boleh menjadi sekolah terbaik bagi manusia, but seriously, living in this world, we can't never run from people's expectation, budak tkc study kat malaysia? and all those stupid questions, well... welcome to the adulthood chal, be matured chal, be prepared chal, life is not that easy chal and most important chal, he knows it better...

i know that he knows me better and diri ini telah aku wakafkan ke jalanmu, one thing for sure i'll work hard no matter where i am, insha allah

yes chal, he knows it BETTER=)

p/s: it's 4th Rabiulawwal, i am 18, da same age that salahuddin was when conquering palestine, hang conquer apa aishah?)...... errrr????