disgruntled

salam...

that's what i feel right now, betul ke chal?(told u that i never know how to describe my feelings)..
so many things came across my mind, adoiiii, :/ hard to describe but this time, yes, it's about future but no more engineering and medic, but it's about marriage, politics and bla..bla..bla...

drop the marriage part(m not gonna tell u now, hish under 18, hahaha)...i am not blaming my school and my friends, not the fate too, but i think it's the mentality, collegians even though we wish and work to be different from others, to put ourselves head and shoulders above others, we work and believe that we are up to the notch but the reality bites, i don't know, may be it's our capability as women(to bee =>) don't know, hard to explain but i think only the collegians understand it kot, the fact that we won't be the future leaders if we keep on behaving like who we were back in the college, i don't know, after 5 years there, seriously i didn't see too much differences between us and the outsiders, don't know, we are actually like them just that kita "perasan bagus" and our ability to do multiple tasks in one time, sorry guys, reality bites, i am telling u the truth, and if we want to talk about "pride", i don't think that we really care like the old collegians used to, i don't know something went wrong and may be we should blame the admin too, to talk about pride, i miss my juniors time when we really care about it, it's actually following the syariah just that since collegians are mostly liberal, we don't take it from da islamic side, don't know.... i think it had turn 360 now, too different, everything as for me i care about pride and stuffs, it's not that we are "kerek" , vain, arrogant or any words yang sewaktu dengannya, just that as muslimah, there are things that u need to really practise and care, islam has bringing us the light but we choose to keep on being in the dark, who to blame?, wait, i don't want to babble on this matter, i am still dangkal, daaa

the environment in merbah is different, if y want to see the young leaders in political arena, i think u can go koleq or other schools, haaa, this is my point today actually, adoiii chal, menyimpang sungguh!!! ok, i think this is because we girls kot, wait, don't get me wrong. well, being and living in the comfort zone, we were drifted to our own world when we think that we are "good", sorry guys, that's the fact. if i need to compare us with the outsiders, they are somehow better than us,(yang berguna jugaklah). we were busy condemning others, yelling them these and those, saying and "kerek" to things yang entah apa-apa until one stage when we are outside the college and mix around with new people that came from various schools, then only we realise our weaknesses, haaa, that's the thing. we were trained to handle multiple tasks at one time, and i think that this gives us the credit but remember guys knowledge and experience should come together, u should juxtapose them, i see this in malays too, sorry but i believe that i can actually see the future of malaysia by just looking at the teenagers and collegians, why because we are among the precious assets that the country has, but may be our "naluri keremajaan"( i use this term because it can helps u to iamgine the teenagers conflicts), drifting us to dream, keep on dreaming while others are in the reality, the real atrocious world. i don't wanna blame us because we are girls but my dearie, we can actually be whoever we wanna be, the future is ours if believe that it is, the world is ours if u know that it is but whatever it is, behave well and follow the syariah,(insha allah, i'll write a post about merbahians yang dah "idiocy"), that's all.. be realistic because i know we can survive, we are survivors, oh NO!!! we are GLADIATORS, standing tough, (but u need to move people).. all the best dearies, may Allah render us rahmat

to all gladiators, selamat pulang ke gagang on thursday, hope to see most of u, i am going tomorrow and hoping to meet makey on wednesday, banyak benda yang i have to tell u semaa', we can change the world, i know we can. redha dengan our result, don't look back, don't regret if u've done ur best but allah didn't give u what u really wanted open ur tafsir and search for sural al-baqarah ayat 216, u'll be greatly fine, i'll make a post on my "advise" cum bebel to all my dearie after the result, we'll see see what i am gonna write, hahaha... welcome to th adulthood, to the real world, may allah bless 140 of us and the altruism teachers

rahmat ALLAH bersama kita :)
chal