istiqamah

salam...

m supposed to write something about nocturnal but this istiqamah thingy came out when i was on my way to n25 bukit selambau yesterday, was listening to this ceramah about istiqamah, this ustaz advised everyone to istiqamah with iman, the ustaz said when people asked u who created this universe, definitely we'll say allah right? but what if people ask u who created allah? what are u gonna say? i bet this question always come accross ur mind, this ustas suggested to answer this question by telling this ayat, m not sure but somathing istiqamah and whenever that question come accross ur mind, say lailahaillallah quickly and he saud the lafaz lailahaillah has to be renewed everyday, yes it is. and i just knew that if u happen to "tertelan" something while solat, u have to sujud sahwi, i just knew it, poor chal, humph :/

i believe that as merbahian we are trained to be istiqamah with our amalan just it depends on the individual, hay!!! i had been reading yaasin every friday's night since 13 n same goes to ceramah and lots more that we had even the prep time but the problem with merbahians this istiqamah thingy don't work when we approach our seniors life why? because we don't do domething sincerely, it doesn't come from our heart, i bet u this is the real reason and therefore i believe that in order for us to educate people it must come from our hearts, then only we can be istiqamaah as not every people realise the purpose of living and life, u wonder why why people keep on doing sin without feeling any guilt? u wonder why people keep on breaking rules even though their actions might harm them and the fact that they come from very good family? u can extrapolate the answer on ur own, no guesswork, trust me!!! as for me i don't do something because of the do's and the don'ts.... i pray because i don't see the purpose of not praying, i wear hijab because i don't see the purpose of letting people see my hair, i didn't break school rules during my life back in bukit merbah because i didn't see the purpose of doing it, seriously.. they said that it's for fun, fun? is that the purpose of urliving not ur life, but wait!!!! is that the only purpose of living? enjoy urself? while people in afghanistan, palestin, lebanon are suffering, starving for food, searching and working just to get something for food? is that it? man, that's cruel and atrocious! god forbid!!! think people, life is not about urself, u're living with lots more people in this world, do something people, live with others, i don't ask u to mourn and be sad, staid nad stern all the time, hay! islam is not that atrocious, mind me!!!! m sure u know how to play ur roles, do something for allah and for the ummah, u will be successful, insha allah....

this living and life thingy came after i read ustaz pahrol's article on hidup and kehidupan, his question on isteri itu teman hidup atau kehidupan keep on hitting my mind and i started to like it, i told raihan and semaa' about this and raihan loves this, she agrees and we manage to see the unseen, alhamdulillah!!! see jan, there are something that only we both understand this,... ustaz pahrol is so great... he said that kita membuat amal bukan untuk persediaan mati tapi persediaan hidup selepas mati and kita tak sewajarnya takut akan kematian tetapi takut akan kehidupan selepas mati, if m not mistaken lah...... so far, haven't found his blog but u can read his column in ANIS, never miss it.... if u're the life searcher, he is soooo a good mind readerlah.....

ponder it friends, istiqamah with all ur good deeds, know ur purpose of existence, hope u manage to see the unseen :)